For it's so dreary not to have.
Uhm i know that in the past i've hated the word love and it's like:
"kaitlyn doesn't believe in love"
"Don't say'love' around kaitlyn"
but i guess i don't take it seriously at all anymore.
Over the past year so much of me and who i was has changed, and I'm kind of starting to hate it. Many of my friends have significantly changed. Some of them are the same and are amazing, and many of them are gone. My personality has changed. I used to be fun, and hyper. Now i'm more mellow an it seems like it's a reason people don't want to be around me. Although then i look around at all the people who are still like i used to be and they look so immature, it's great to be hyper sometimes, it's fun, but if you're just crazy all the time and react hugely towards everything it's just kind of childish appearing. Like i almost want to just tell some people to grow up sometimes but i know they won't so what's the point. Now i always have to feel like the big-bad-bitch.
On the plus side I'm not the same selfish girl i was a few months ago. Now it takes something real for me to care about someone/something. I'm more open towards those who listen, and more realistic about my words and actions. I'm proud of becoming a realist. I'm not proud of people who think they are good people and have changed for the worse, i wish some things hadn't happened, I really do, but I'm not going to get myself into situations with people who do, bad things.
I basically hate winter too. The cold weather makes me want someone to be with and it kind of blows.
Just so you know, there's a reason i said that bit about love at the beginning. A definite reason.
"kaitlyn doesn't believe in love"
"Don't say'love' around kaitlyn"
but i guess i don't take it seriously at all anymore.
Over the past year so much of me and who i was has changed, and I'm kind of starting to hate it. Many of my friends have significantly changed. Some of them are the same and are amazing, and many of them are gone. My personality has changed. I used to be fun, and hyper. Now i'm more mellow an it seems like it's a reason people don't want to be around me. Although then i look around at all the people who are still like i used to be and they look so immature, it's great to be hyper sometimes, it's fun, but if you're just crazy all the time and react hugely towards everything it's just kind of childish appearing. Like i almost want to just tell some people to grow up sometimes but i know they won't so what's the point. Now i always have to feel like the big-bad-bitch.
On the plus side I'm not the same selfish girl i was a few months ago. Now it takes something real for me to care about someone/something. I'm more open towards those who listen, and more realistic about my words and actions. I'm proud of becoming a realist. I'm not proud of people who think they are good people and have changed for the worse, i wish some things hadn't happened, I really do, but I'm not going to get myself into situations with people who do, bad things.
I basically hate winter too. The cold weather makes me want someone to be with and it kind of blows.
Just so you know, there's a reason i said that bit about love at the beginning. A definite reason.