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is it sad ....
that the only time of day i look forward to these days is night time when i go to bed, so i can cry without anyone hearing me because i hate explaining why i'm still crying over him.
that he's still the first person i look for when i walk into a room at school and the first person i look for when i get online.
that i still check my phone every 10 minutes in hope that he would call.
that i just can't stay mad at him, or even hate him.
worst for all...that i'd take him back in a heartbeat if he truely showed me he was sorry.
i want it all back. i was finally truely happy. and now it's gone.
i know its kinda pathetic.. it was only 2 and a half months, but it all just ended out of the blue.
that the only time of day i look forward to these days is night time when i go to bed, so i can cry without anyone hearing me because i hate explaining why i'm still crying over him.
that he's still the first person i look for when i walk into a room at school and the first person i look for when i get online.
that i still check my phone every 10 minutes in hope that he would call.
that i just can't stay mad at him, or even hate him.
worst for all...that i'd take him back in a heartbeat if he truely showed me he was sorry.
i want it all back. i was finally truely happy. and now it's gone.
i know its kinda pathetic.. it was only 2 and a half months, but it all just ended out of the blue.