my momma sleepin with my baby daddy....oh hell naw

[xosamiamxo]

first of all i liked to start off on how much i love the weather we've been having i cant wait until summer comes along i've been hanging out with my hot mamma tree we've been going on bike rides adventures i love her she always puts a smile on my face we watched a bunch of movies and acted like retards but hey what else is new when were together we have so many good times and actually just sit back and laugh about everything and totally forget all the shit thats going on in my life.i really just in that mood to go somewhere and get all my thoughts and everything together and just not talk to anyone just leave and have noone know just forget about everything that is happening in your life and not worrying about a damn thing... now doesnt that sound good.i hate the fact that in all my journal entrys i've been complaing and yet i'm gonna get here and complain on this one too so oh well you just got to deal with it.and yet that the fact that it april just depresses me i hate april i've had so many bad times in april the fact that my grandfather died and i'm still not over that and cry and its been 4 years now is that still okay?
i really would like to actually find a boy that will work out for once..im getting sick of putting my heart on the table for it to get smashed into a bunch of pieces.. i guess i just need time to deal with it all and i'll be fine i mean i just gotta move on what else can i do?? i just feel like freakin crap and i truly hate myself for this i tell myself that i wont talk to him and i'll just let him talk to me and that will just make him come back to me - but who am i fooling he aint gonna come back and let i still talk to him im such a loser i cant even follow my thoughts but yet people come to me to help them ugh.
yeah whatever im done with this crap

oh but i do love my soul mate thats erin michelle criswell;-)