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god. yesterday sucked. my whole life is sucking. and i really hate livejournal... even though i still do it. ive been having such a hard time with change lately. i usually handle it well, ya know. but lately... not so well. first off its like after the breakup (which has been alot harder than i thought it would ever be) ive realized i really need my foundation of friends and such. and its just like everyone is changing and may i just say acting FAKE. its like im not even there. this is mostly just a few people, but its like.. they're my good friends.. or WERE my good friends.. and its just like now they could give a shit. and when they ask whats wrong.. i mean do they really care? no. so im not gunna bother telling them when they act so self absorbed and rude. im so fucking sick of it all.. and i just wanna throw up all over them. christ jesus. i probably wont be updating for awhile now that school is starting. wow. i feel sick thinking about all of this. life.. just sucks.
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