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its so weird to be in the position of making new friends again
i feel like this entry should have been posted a while ago, and that i should be over this by now, but im not
i pictured college different
i thought i was good at making friends and meeting new people
there are no zeuss up at school, no alyssas, no melissas, no dans, no mikes, no johns, no jennas, no anyone
they are all new people, i guess i just wasnt prepared for that
i wish i was closer with allie
of course things at first are expected to be a little awkward, but its been 3 months
i do feel comfortable around her, we just arent as close as i pictured
what do i do to change thissssS????
sure maybe some people just dont click
but i dont know why we dont get along
i dont know why i cant just be myself outloud
i hate feeling like i miss how everything USED to be
because thats all it is, something it used to be
it will never be like that again
sure i still have friends, but they arent here, they have moved on, we will never all be in school togeter again, so why am i still stuck??
i knew transitioning would be hard
i expected it
i knew i would have a tough time
but come on... give me a break
i want the girls on my floor to open their door
i want to be able to walk into their rooms and just hang out
i want to say poop out loud and have them just say ooooh elaine
i cant keep telling myself im going to change
i need to actually change
if im really going to transfer then i better make the most of this last year!
i feel like this entry should have been posted a while ago, and that i should be over this by now, but im not
i pictured college different
i thought i was good at making friends and meeting new people
there are no zeuss up at school, no alyssas, no melissas, no dans, no mikes, no johns, no jennas, no anyone
they are all new people, i guess i just wasnt prepared for that
i wish i was closer with allie
of course things at first are expected to be a little awkward, but its been 3 months
i do feel comfortable around her, we just arent as close as i pictured
what do i do to change thissssS????
sure maybe some people just dont click
but i dont know why we dont get along
i dont know why i cant just be myself outloud
i hate feeling like i miss how everything USED to be
because thats all it is, something it used to be
it will never be like that again
sure i still have friends, but they arent here, they have moved on, we will never all be in school togeter again, so why am i still stuck??
i knew transitioning would be hard
i expected it
i knew i would have a tough time
but come on... give me a break
i want the girls on my floor to open their door
i want to be able to walk into their rooms and just hang out
i want to say poop out loud and have them just say ooooh elaine
i cant keep telling myself im going to change
i need to actually change
if im really going to transfer then i better make the most of this last year!