Don't let me let you go........
Today mom and I went to an Al-Anon meeting today (I drove both ways). It wasn't the best meeting and I was feeling detached (in denial?) and almost burst into a hysterical fit of laughter a couple of times. There was some good information in there but I don't know if my mom is open-minded enough to continue going?
We came home and I cooked breakfast for everybody (eggs & toast). I poured a cup of coffee but decided against it because 1) I haven't smoked a cigarette in almost 2 days [& it would probably be a trigger] and 2) I'm still avoiding the caffeine so I can look sleek in my dress tonight.
I need to:
pluck my eyebrows
finishing touches on fingers and toes - check
shave everywhere - check
dry and curl my hair a little bit near when it's time to leave
iron my gown - check
get dressed - heels and dress and cap and gown
lather up with lotion - the works check
take a nap?
hydrate
take a chill pill? check
do crunchies (did 30 so far)
find jewelry
do make-up - the works
edit:
I still have 2 hours before we have to leave. Still haven't heard anything from Derek, so I don't know if he needs a ticket or what. I don't really care. I'm not going to make him into a significant part of my night because he obviously isn't and doesn't want to be.
I guess we're still going to the Sober Grad Night dance but I'm tired already. I'll be surprised if I stay awake during the ceremony. Not really, but you know. I haven't had any coffee today, or any caffeine period. If we do go dancing I'm going to want to perk up with a Rock Star or Red Bull or some other crap.
Overall, I'm satisfied with myself physically today. My stomach is kind of bloated which pisses me off that's okay. My skin is nice and tan and looking relatively clear. I shaved and put on lotion so I'm soft and faux-flawless. My nails and toe nails are red and although my hair is still up in a towel it won't be for long, and when my hair is curled and I'm all dressed with my gown and heels I'll be looking fabulous.
I still want to go dancing. Partially because it is really great exercise. Part of me wants to just come home too, because I know there will be loving family here, plus weed and a bottle of champange with my name on it.
We came home and I cooked breakfast for everybody (eggs & toast). I poured a cup of coffee but decided against it because 1) I haven't smoked a cigarette in almost 2 days [& it would probably be a trigger] and 2) I'm still avoiding the caffeine so I can look sleek in my dress tonight.
I need to:
pluck my eyebrows
finishing touches on fingers and toes - check
shave everywhere - check
dry and curl my hair a little bit near when it's time to leave
iron my gown - check
get dressed - heels and dress and cap and gown
lather up with lotion - the works check
take a nap?
hydrate
take a chill pill? check
do crunchies (did 30 so far)
find jewelry
do make-up - the works
edit:
I still have 2 hours before we have to leave. Still haven't heard anything from Derek, so I don't know if he needs a ticket or what. I don't really care. I'm not going to make him into a significant part of my night because he obviously isn't and doesn't want to be.
I guess we're still going to the Sober Grad Night dance but I'm tired already. I'll be surprised if I stay awake during the ceremony. Not really, but you know. I haven't had any coffee today, or any caffeine period. If we do go dancing I'm going to want to perk up with a Rock Star or Red Bull or some other crap.
Overall, I'm satisfied with myself physically today. My stomach is kind of bloated which pisses me off that's okay. My skin is nice and tan and looking relatively clear. I shaved and put on lotion so I'm soft and faux-flawless. My nails and toe nails are red and although my hair is still up in a towel it won't be for long, and when my hair is curled and I'm all dressed with my gown and heels I'll be looking fabulous.
I still want to go dancing. Partially because it is really great exercise. Part of me wants to just come home too, because I know there will be loving family here, plus weed and a bottle of champange with my name on it.