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no more toking i mean it. i just eat whenever i smoke & that doesn't help my situation..... not to mention the fact that i can feel myself getting dumber and dumber by the second. and you know what's sad? i looked in the mirror today & cried. yea i cried real tears. i guess i really don't like myself.. i reallllly don't. i just think i'm like... shamu or something worse if theres anything worse then that.. tomorrows a new day though. he made me promise i wouldn't try anything but i think i'm gonna hafta.... i'm deperate. tonight... well i guess this morning, i'm gonna do at least 700 situps before i goto bed. it's in no way gonna make up for all the unhealthy shit i ate but its a start until tomorrow @ 7:00 am when the gyn opens. i'm goina golds @ 7 til 9...i'll probably go on the elyptical for an hour.... thats 600 cals. then maybe the tredmil for a 1/2 hour and for the other 1/2 hour i'll do toning. whatever i can't fit in tonight. then showering then going to work frum 10-3ish. yay....work... :( tonight i ended up going to trevors. they wanted to go to hooters to eat but i wouldn't have that kinda shit. i won in air hockey too when we played. haha i'm so competetive i was so happy to win. we all played 45's too. jamie & trevor lost....... we haven't lost once! haha watch next time we'll get our asses kicked. either way it's time for that intense work out... this really suckss..