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[xoracle_whorex]

i feel like im losing touch with everything.
yea im still here.
yea im still doing what i usually do.
but i feel like im only doing things out of rutine.
i think about somethings, and im just comepletly numb.
i dont know how to react to anything anymore.
i dont want to lose myself in this like i have before.
im a different person then i was then.
im stronger, at least i thought i was.

i thought that i was going to have a good year.
for a while, i thought it was going well.
i had a boyfriend who i loved.
i had great friends that i thought would always be there.
i was going to do well in school.
i was going to fix things that went wrong with ppl last year.
i fixed things.
im trying to do well in school.
i know which friends will really be there.
and i know now that people dont change.

im just giving up now.
i dont know what else to do.
im just so lost and confused about everything.
what do i have left?
people come and go.
not all friends will be there forever.

where's the happy ending to my lifes story i always hoped for?