oh dont mind me, just rambling..
for the first time in my life i can say i am happy. i know its weird, in all of my 17 years, ive never been as fulfilled as i am now and it took losing what i thought was my life, to get here and i have never been so proud of myself. i know it may sound a bit conceeded, but i dont care, im proud of who i have become and im proud that i have made it this far.. its amazing how the things you thought were everything to you, in retrospect, arent really that important
i spent a good...... 2 in a half weeks, smiling, uncontrollably, and i like it.. there i said it, I LIKE IT. i like where i am now, and the people that are in my life. i like waking up every morning and smiling, knowing that the days gonna be good. that i dont have to spend another night, lying awake til 4 or crying myself to sleep and i like it. i cant remember the last time ive cried, and you know what, thats a good thing! ive gotten back in touch with my friends and were better than ever
it took a revalation, different from my past ones and i dont know what was different about it, but it worked. at 17 years old i was expiriencing and putting up with things that people go their entire lives without.. at 17 i was miserable and battered and ready to just quit... at 17! i have a lifetime ahead of me, and i was actually CHOOSING to spend it hurting and unhappy
Benjamin Franklin defined insanity as "doing the same thing over and over, expecting different results" which apparently proves that i have been clinically insane for the last 3 years of my life, hahah how completely riddiculous is it when you can catagorize yourself in BENJAMIN FRANKLINS definition of insanity?
either way, i am happy. i found the happiness i spent every "11:11" wishing for.. i found the peace of mind i needed and i can say that i have no regrets, only that i didnt find what i was looking for sooner. but thats what growing up is all about, its all just expiriences, and lessons learned.
i spent a good...... 2 in a half weeks, smiling, uncontrollably, and i like it.. there i said it, I LIKE IT. i like where i am now, and the people that are in my life. i like waking up every morning and smiling, knowing that the days gonna be good. that i dont have to spend another night, lying awake til 4 or crying myself to sleep and i like it. i cant remember the last time ive cried, and you know what, thats a good thing! ive gotten back in touch with my friends and were better than ever
it took a revalation, different from my past ones and i dont know what was different about it, but it worked. at 17 years old i was expiriencing and putting up with things that people go their entire lives without.. at 17 i was miserable and battered and ready to just quit... at 17! i have a lifetime ahead of me, and i was actually CHOOSING to spend it hurting and unhappy
Benjamin Franklin defined insanity as "doing the same thing over and over, expecting different results" which apparently proves that i have been clinically insane for the last 3 years of my life, hahah how completely riddiculous is it when you can catagorize yourself in BENJAMIN FRANKLINS definition of insanity?
either way, i am happy. i found the happiness i spent every "11:11" wishing for.. i found the peace of mind i needed and i can say that i have no regrets, only that i didnt find what i was looking for sooner. but thats what growing up is all about, its all just expiriences, and lessons learned.