and if you say the word, i could stay with you.
3 days. that's all i have left before i leave for college. i'd like to say i'm prepared, but i know i'm not. i have to read over half of my summer reading, do an essay, pack, and worst of all, say good bye to the people i really love and trust in life. i said my first REAL goodbye tonight to john ed and sean. it killed me. i couldnt hold anything back. it just doesnt hit you how much you depend on these people, how much you take it for granted that you see them every day of your life. they are always there, they are ALWAYS real friends. i have some people i am dreading saying bye to, i just dont think i have it in me. i want to take them with me. and i dont think they know how much they mean to me. how much i trust them and how much i care about them. to the point where i cant imagine my life without them. i have a lot of trouble really believing people and completely opening up to them, but here are a certain few who i cant keep myself from talking to, from opening up to. and i just dont think they get how much i am going to miss them. i dont know i'm rambling. i know college will be fun and that i have to grow up and move on. i just hope some people dont forget me.