my second updation for today
with just 3 words you can take
so its almost monday and why i'm up?? yea idk..so at 10 i realized nothing was on so while i was blowdrying my hair..i glanced at my note box..and decided i wanted to read all of his notes from last year..BIGG MISTAKEE..(just today i was thinking how its been a good 2 months since ive cryed b.c of him) sooo lets just say theres like 10000000 notes..im halfway threw the first one and i'm crying..(i guess i broke the cryin strike)..stupid stupid me..like reading his notes..what could that possibly solve??? yeaa idk just more upsettness..so during all this Al calls and so i read a couple to her and she was ready to cry ha..so i cryed to her and vented and it felt soo good this time..idky normally shes filled with mean things against him..this time it was comforting the things she said..and she decided i should call him one day and just tell him...psssshh wtf good is that gonna do?? yea she dont think things threw..then i thought about a note..then i was like why bother...this update was pointless but i wanted to get this off my chest so i could sleep...k its 1159 and toms monday boooooo..god these days dont get any better do they?? i thought we had off tom until i looked at the calander haaa im sucha fag..and oh can i say how proud i am i got ryano in on time..i didnt even do it last year..shitt i need to get my gym clothes ready..byee
this suffering away from me by saying you love me one last time<33