I love you.......randomhero202February 20 2005, 07:04:28 UTC
Holy shit. After so long its finally here. No not your period. Not you having money. An updated journal. Well I to had the best time of my life too. WEll one of many at least. I still like the first time we (hung out). I liked it when we got together and you drew on my arms with markers. I love those days.
But this past week it was almost like a dream. It just went by to fast. It makes me want you hear even more. I would sell my left testicle to have you here again. If it was just a little warmer we could of swam in the ocean. It could of been better and Im sorry it wasn;t everything I planned. The pool was broke and im pissed that i passed up a jacuzzi for a brocken pool. ANd it could of been a better hotel. But next time you come (no pun intended) you'll be old enough to come into the barracks and such. And go to the bars and clubs with us and wahtever. But yes I did have fun giving you a bath. You smelled worse than the jap people. I wish the tub was bigger. I hate being big. I hate being away from you. Its so gay gay gay. Next time we can stay in myrtle beach longer. Like a couple nights.
But felicia you mean the world to me. No one will ever understand how much I love you or why I love you so much. No dumb fuck is ever gonna take that away. Not even this fucking army. We will be together soon. Im gonna make it home from this stupid war and we will start our life. Im sorry for ever leaving you. I shouldn't be here. When I graduated and eventually starting dating you I gave up on my thoughts of being in the military because I couldn;t put you through what I am now. And shit fell apart and I left and the memories still pay in my head over and over again. Me letting go of you in my arms. ANd later that night walking around the hotel and letting you go again into someone elses arms. I hate what I did to us. I hate what happened but it only pushes me harder to make everything perfect.
Felicia I love you more than my life itself. You will always be the ONE girl I truely gave my heart to. Forever and a day. I love you felicia.
But this past week it was almost like a dream. It just went by to fast. It makes me want you hear even more. I would sell my left testicle to have you here again. If it was just a little warmer we could of swam in the ocean. It could of been better and Im sorry it wasn;t everything I planned. The pool was broke and im pissed that i passed up a jacuzzi for a brocken pool. ANd it could of been a better hotel. But next time you come (no pun intended) you'll be old enough to come into the barracks and such. And go to the bars and clubs with us and wahtever. But yes I did have fun giving you a bath. You smelled worse than the jap people. I wish the tub was bigger. I hate being big. I hate being away from you. Its so gay gay gay. Next time we can stay in myrtle beach longer. Like a couple nights.
But felicia you mean the world to me. No one will ever understand how much I love you or why I love you so much. No dumb fuck is ever gonna take that away. Not even this fucking army. We will be together soon. Im gonna make it home from this stupid war and we will start our life. Im sorry for ever leaving you. I shouldn't be here. When I graduated and eventually starting dating you I gave up on my thoughts of being in the military because I couldn;t put you through what I am now. And shit fell apart and I left and the memories still pay in my head over and over again. Me letting go of you in my arms. ANd later that night walking around the hotel and letting you go again into someone elses arms. I hate what I did to us. I hate what happened but it only pushes me harder to make everything perfect.
Felicia I love you more than my life itself. You will always be the ONE girl I truely gave my heart to. Forever and a day. I love you felicia.
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