*wow...i really haven't had time to update*
Yea...i've had NO time to update since the begining of school with loads of home work since the first day of school....and guard practice almost every night pluse work..yea busy life sucks but i guess it's better than being bored right? well if anyone was curiouse my life has taken this really wierd turn. i mean how would you feel if you really liked someone? then found out , after him telling you that he feels the same way you feel, that he has a girlfriend? well i can tell you from experience that it feels like crap. you feel worthless. it's sad that my self worth partialy depends on someone else's thoughts and feelings but it's just the way i am. then...things become even more complicated..huh..then...things happen that i'm not going to elaborate on..and..now everything is diff. i feel like i've been messed with...my emotions go from high to low and i hate the feeling of uncontrolable anxiety..it seems like i only have two people in my life right now that understand me...and i don't mind saying that Teresa and Marie are the only people in my life right now that can possibly fathom how i'm feeling. it sucks when you have so much going on and you have no one to turn to. i feel like these are supposed to be my most exciting and enjoyable years of my life...well they aren't.damn.