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My friends try to live, and they die.
I try to die, and i live.
They get rewarded.
I live with the consequences of my self-destructive actions.
I feel like a suicide bomber that wore a dud.
This wasnt supposed to be. Im about to be 23 years old.
I'm miserable both ways.
Why are you doing this to me?
Why can't i have one or the other or both or nothing?
You made me this way, give me the strength the beat it or let me fucking come home.
Im tired of this. You know i am. You know more than i do.
SO WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP GOING THROUGH THIS?? PLEASE...HELP ME DO ONE OR THE OTHER
amen
I try to die, and i live.
They get rewarded.
I live with the consequences of my self-destructive actions.
I feel like a suicide bomber that wore a dud.
This wasnt supposed to be. Im about to be 23 years old.
I'm miserable both ways.
Why are you doing this to me?
Why can't i have one or the other or both or nothing?
You made me this way, give me the strength the beat it or let me fucking come home.
Im tired of this. You know i am. You know more than i do.
SO WHY THE FUCK DO I KEEP GOING THROUGH THIS?? PLEASE...HELP ME DO ONE OR THE OTHER
amen