the world hates me
wow, i am having one of the worst fucking days ever. not only was school today, but all different pressures came along with it. so due to all "MY" procrastination, i didn't make it into drivers ed at the school. so it all MY fault. so now it MY resposibility to find another place or i don't get my license. so then i feel like i did horrible on my spanish speaking for the regents today. oh, and before the school day even starts, my mom also starts giving my crap about how i need to get my report card fixed AGAIN for the third fucking time because the fuckin school can't stay organized. and then i get home and my family is being freakin annoying. my sister is screaming, my brother is acting fucking stupid making wierd sounds trying to be funny when ITS NOT. and then my dad trys talking to me about stupid stuff & i am NOT in the mood to talk WHAT SO EVER. so i tell him to SHUT UP. then we celebrate my mom's birthday. & all the sudden i hear them start singing happy birthday to her & i get up in time to be for the last line. SO NOW i am inconsiderate RUDE person. so it all MY fault. and my family doesn't even want my to stay at the table to eat cake and open presents. so now i feel unwanted. and i want this fucking rain to go away. now i am leaving to get out of this fuckin house with erin to get my mind of things, even though i am exhausted. so good thing i have this journal so i can take 5 minutes and write about how pissed off i am . thanks for reading, pz.