i dont feel myself today
i dont update my journal ever, and when i do its like 547 hours of bitching.. so prepare urself. Well ever since summer skool let out ive been so bored.. my days get so long because i dont sleep anymore and i feel like im just waiting for something. Everyday i wake up i feel the same and i hate that... the only time that im completely content with everything is when im with austin. that sounds girlfriend-y and pathetic but seriously i think he keeps me sane in all this crazy mess. hes the only thing that seems real anymore... if that makes sense. the other day we went to go see seana and i think that cheered me up a bit too.. shes a hooker and i love her, and through everything she still manages to stay friends with me and austin, i love that more than anything. she makes me smile.
is it wierd that im already looking forward to christmas break? im soooo excited about it and im already making plans like a dumbass. i think i just really miss marilyn and brittany and i really want to take austin to california and have him meet everyone. he needs a vacation i know it and since this summer has been super crazy we'll just have to wait until christmas.. thinking about that makes me smile the most.
i have the ashlee simpson cd and that makes me smile too. i think shes hottt!!
is it wierd that im already looking forward to christmas break? im soooo excited about it and im already making plans like a dumbass. i think i just really miss marilyn and brittany and i really want to take austin to california and have him meet everyone. he needs a vacation i know it and since this summer has been super crazy we'll just have to wait until christmas.. thinking about that makes me smile the most.
i have the ashlee simpson cd and that makes me smile too. i think shes hottt!!