bad day
goodness, i really thought that things would start to get better... not that there getting to much worse or anything but they are so stressful. i started my NA meetings and when i told the one person i was hoping to please with that information they shook their head at me and i don't know why. when i asked why i got no response. but i enjoyed the meeting i think i'll do alright. and i saw my shrink doctor people before i can't spell what they call them.. lol anyway he was so rude, arrogant, and i couldn't believe how shitty he made me feel and how little i felt by the time i left. he made me feel as if my efforts of sobriety were pointless and my mom couldn't help my pain any more then i could. i was really glad when my mom decided to change doctors. he made me feel like it was an easy choice to either not drink or drink plain and simple. and as any person who has a problem with drinking would know if it was that easy they would stop whenever they wanted. sadly though it is not that easy. but with people supporting me and friends by my side it makes it alot easier, i still wish he would be around and talk to me. i could use his help i really could. its been a struggle the past few weeks. but i think it will get a little worse but then better. thank you to the people who have been there for me, you know who you are. i love you guys.