cont'd
That last thing I had posted I mentioned that I would most likely regret writing all of that on my live journal. But the thing is I don't, not in the slightest way. I told you that I still love you and everything else that I had said so now you know. I'm am glad that I finally told you EVERYTHING that I have been thinking and feeling whether it made a difference or not, you will always mean alot to me and you are right. After I got off the phone with you the other night I thought about what you said. That if we could ever work through all of this we would be the best of friends and if we are not able to be together romantically I would give the world to be what you concidered one of your best and truest friends. Victor I can never try and tell you what you mean to me but hopefully, one day you will realize it and we will spend the rest of our lives together even if it just as life long friends who will always keep in touch with eachother. That among everything else would mean alot to me and I know it would also mean alot to you. Your right before I do anything I need to work on myself and start taking care of me. As long as I have you there on my cheering side and helping me through the toughest of times I know I can do anything. And my only hope is that you would want me there on your side when you need a friend the most.