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wow its been forever since ive wrote in this thing! well i need to vent and so i decided i would write in here!
i have realized so much stuff in the past 2 months its crazy! i realized all guys are the same no matter how you look at them. they will all break your heart wether you go out with them for 5 years or only "talk" to them for 2 weeks it will still hert the same. so mayb i should just wait til EMU to get a boyfriend maybe i will find the perfect one. YA RITE. im just sick of the heartache it seems like it will never go away! also i realized how important soccer is to me its my favorite thing ever. because when i go on the field nothing matters no drama from school, no matter how sad i am from boys, no worries of me and my mom fighting, i dont think and worry about how sick my grandparents are or anything. the only thing i think about is how i miss my daddy. and how i wish he was still here to see how far ive come! he would be so proud of me everyone always says.. ya he would be i was his babygirl and how everything would be different if he was still here... words cant even explain how much i miss him rite now... a girl really needs a dad i can tell you that much! why do i still find myself crying to sleep at nite why am i not use to it... he has been gone since i was 6 hello whats wrong with me... ::Sigh::
BESTFRIEND WAS JUST A WORD UNTIL THESE GIRLS GAVE IT A MEANING! and how can someone say you can only have one bestfriend... thats not true i have two jessica and kathy, and these girls mean everything to me, we are all having a hard time with a lot of stuff and we all understand so good.. if i didnt have these two girls i would die i seriously would! i <3 them so much this is the first time we are all very close and are not fighting and i think we are gonna stay this way for a long time because weve all grown up and realized how much we really do need eachother! a girl is nothing with out her bessys! and thats what i have two GREAT girls! this is the most perfect quote for us..... These girls - they're beautiful personalities - incredible smiles - so memorable they're friendships - non*replacable -Jess-Nae-Kat- The 3 of us gotta bond (( that can never be broken )) I FUCKIN LOVE YOU GIRLS WITH MY WHOLE ENTIRE HEART!!!!
rebecca ann AKA beeeecky i freakin love you so much! you are always there for me no matter what! you taught me how to swim when i was a wee one! now look at all the stuff youve taught me over the years! ur such a great person and i love you so much! i look up to u n so many ways! you have no idea how much u really mean to me! not only are you my cousin, ur a best friend, my guardian angel, and i dont care what anyone says your my sister! i love you rebecca ann with my whole heart!
my mommy me n her dont get a long the best i think anyone who knos me or my mom can tell you that! but over the summer me and her became real close! i <3 her so much! she tries her best to come to every single soccer game and soccer is getting rea expensive so its hard for her to make it to all of them but the ones she comes to she is always yellin at us telling us how good we are doing and i love it! i love my mom so much and next year when i leave its gonna hert so bad because i kno she will be home alone and i will miss her so much.. i love you lots mommy!
So I was really starting to like this kid and I love how people like to talk shit about me and him when first of all they don’t even kno him. And they said they “heard” dude we are seniors no more he said she said I heard bull shit its just dumb DRAMA GET OVER YOURSELF well since I was just hooking up with him so I could get him and shawn to fight I guess my plan is ruined cause now I don’t even talk to him and that’s just fuckin dumb because ya I do love shawn he is soo nice to me and I can talk to him about ne thing. We are good friends so I guess that’s not ok.. so whatever!!!
Shawn ur sweet and thank you for hanging all that stuff up in my room I <3 it!! And thanks for being a GOOD FRIEND to me even tho we have sex and don’t even remember it…. Wow people are soo dumb! AND DON’T EVER TAKE MY BLANKET AND PUT IT IN THE SINK AND GET IT ALL WET THAT IS SOO MEAN!!! Lol <3 u! OH YEA SHAWN IS MY BOYFRIEND ONLY FRI SAT AND SUN!!!! LOL
well ne ways school started and i love all my classes and all my teachers! but there is already some drama but im so glad no matter what nothing will ever happen to the 3 Musketeers! *Kat*Nae*Jess* hopefully it stays a good year! because we are SENIORS HELL YEA CLASS OF 2005!!!
well about this weekend. fri i hung out with jess we went to her dads then we went to shawns for a lil bit then we took him to marks and me n her went back to her house talked to her mommy and brother and some of his friends for a lil bit then we went to kats got her and went to uriahs! i <3 those boys Uriah, Paul, Marc, And Ross they all make me smile! then after kat went home so did i cause i had soccer in ohio the next day! so i went home and packed! then in the morning me n my mom went over to the rakers cause we rode and stayed with them! it was a lot of fun! when we first got there me n katie walked around our hotel it was sooo nice then there were these table things that had drawers and we looked in everyone and then i looked in one and two mini soccer balls came rollin out! then we went down stairs to the bathroom and the tampon machince was broke so we kept turning it and the tampons and pads kept comeing out! it was great! then we went to our game... lets not talk about that, then we came home showered and went to the mall with our moms and evey then we went to eat and went back and hung out at the hotel! it was soo nice everything in the town was soo nice clean and perfect! i wanna live there when i get older dubblin ohio! it was so pretty everything was better then in michigan! then 2day we had a game at 8 and we left rite after and when i got home i just hung out with my mom all day that was nice i havent done that in a while! things to look foward to this week monday- school -FIA place -soccer -shs vs. nhs soccer game with mike tues-EMU game with heather wed-soccer thurs-work i get to see all my kids! :) fri- JESSICA FREAKING AYRES BIRTHDAY EVERYONE WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! SHE WILL BE THE BIG 17!!! YAY sat-stat cup game -Michigan football game with mike *Mayb* sunday-go see grandma and grandpa! then haing out with jess and kat... thats a given!
Yesterday i had soccer and then i went to the NHS vs. SHS soccer game with mike! it was fun i miss hanging out with him :)
2day i hung out with kathy i was suppose to go to the EMU game but i didnt :( oh well i had fun with kat uriah and marc! then 2mrrow i have soccer then hopefully ill be with kat again!
HOLLER Nae
FRI IS JESSICAS BIRTHDAY SHE WILL BE 17 SO EVERYONE WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!
i have realized so much stuff in the past 2 months its crazy! i realized all guys are the same no matter how you look at them. they will all break your heart wether you go out with them for 5 years or only "talk" to them for 2 weeks it will still hert the same. so mayb i should just wait til EMU to get a boyfriend maybe i will find the perfect one. YA RITE. im just sick of the heartache it seems like it will never go away! also i realized how important soccer is to me its my favorite thing ever. because when i go on the field nothing matters no drama from school, no matter how sad i am from boys, no worries of me and my mom fighting, i dont think and worry about how sick my grandparents are or anything. the only thing i think about is how i miss my daddy. and how i wish he was still here to see how far ive come! he would be so proud of me everyone always says.. ya he would be i was his babygirl and how everything would be different if he was still here... words cant even explain how much i miss him rite now... a girl really needs a dad i can tell you that much! why do i still find myself crying to sleep at nite why am i not use to it... he has been gone since i was 6 hello whats wrong with me... ::Sigh::
BESTFRIEND WAS JUST A WORD UNTIL THESE GIRLS GAVE IT A MEANING! and how can someone say you can only have one bestfriend... thats not true i have two jessica and kathy, and these girls mean everything to me, we are all having a hard time with a lot of stuff and we all understand so good.. if i didnt have these two girls i would die i seriously would! i <3 them so much this is the first time we are all very close and are not fighting and i think we are gonna stay this way for a long time because weve all grown up and realized how much we really do need eachother! a girl is nothing with out her bessys! and thats what i have two GREAT girls! this is the most perfect quote for us..... These girls - they're beautiful personalities - incredible smiles - so memorable they're friendships - non*replacable -Jess-Nae-Kat- The 3 of us gotta bond (( that can never be broken )) I FUCKIN LOVE YOU GIRLS WITH MY WHOLE ENTIRE HEART!!!!
rebecca ann AKA beeeecky i freakin love you so much! you are always there for me no matter what! you taught me how to swim when i was a wee one! now look at all the stuff youve taught me over the years! ur such a great person and i love you so much! i look up to u n so many ways! you have no idea how much u really mean to me! not only are you my cousin, ur a best friend, my guardian angel, and i dont care what anyone says your my sister! i love you rebecca ann with my whole heart!
my mommy me n her dont get a long the best i think anyone who knos me or my mom can tell you that! but over the summer me and her became real close! i <3 her so much! she tries her best to come to every single soccer game and soccer is getting rea expensive so its hard for her to make it to all of them but the ones she comes to she is always yellin at us telling us how good we are doing and i love it! i love my mom so much and next year when i leave its gonna hert so bad because i kno she will be home alone and i will miss her so much.. i love you lots mommy!
So I was really starting to like this kid and I love how people like to talk shit about me and him when first of all they don’t even kno him. And they said they “heard” dude we are seniors no more he said she said I heard bull shit its just dumb DRAMA GET OVER YOURSELF well since I was just hooking up with him so I could get him and shawn to fight I guess my plan is ruined cause now I don’t even talk to him and that’s just fuckin dumb because ya I do love shawn he is soo nice to me and I can talk to him about ne thing. We are good friends so I guess that’s not ok.. so whatever!!!
Shawn ur sweet and thank you for hanging all that stuff up in my room I <3 it!! And thanks for being a GOOD FRIEND to me even tho we have sex and don’t even remember it…. Wow people are soo dumb! AND DON’T EVER TAKE MY BLANKET AND PUT IT IN THE SINK AND GET IT ALL WET THAT IS SOO MEAN!!! Lol <3 u! OH YEA SHAWN IS MY BOYFRIEND ONLY FRI SAT AND SUN!!!! LOL
well ne ways school started and i love all my classes and all my teachers! but there is already some drama but im so glad no matter what nothing will ever happen to the 3 Musketeers! *Kat*Nae*Jess* hopefully it stays a good year! because we are SENIORS HELL YEA CLASS OF 2005!!!
well about this weekend. fri i hung out with jess we went to her dads then we went to shawns for a lil bit then we took him to marks and me n her went back to her house talked to her mommy and brother and some of his friends for a lil bit then we went to kats got her and went to uriahs! i <3 those boys Uriah, Paul, Marc, And Ross they all make me smile! then after kat went home so did i cause i had soccer in ohio the next day! so i went home and packed! then in the morning me n my mom went over to the rakers cause we rode and stayed with them! it was a lot of fun! when we first got there me n katie walked around our hotel it was sooo nice then there were these table things that had drawers and we looked in everyone and then i looked in one and two mini soccer balls came rollin out! then we went down stairs to the bathroom and the tampon machince was broke so we kept turning it and the tampons and pads kept comeing out! it was great! then we went to our game... lets not talk about that, then we came home showered and went to the mall with our moms and evey then we went to eat and went back and hung out at the hotel! it was soo nice everything in the town was soo nice clean and perfect! i wanna live there when i get older dubblin ohio! it was so pretty everything was better then in michigan! then 2day we had a game at 8 and we left rite after and when i got home i just hung out with my mom all day that was nice i havent done that in a while! things to look foward to this week monday- school -FIA place -soccer -shs vs. nhs soccer game with mike tues-EMU game with heather wed-soccer thurs-work i get to see all my kids! :) fri- JESSICA FREAKING AYRES BIRTHDAY EVERYONE WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! SHE WILL BE THE BIG 17!!! YAY sat-stat cup game -Michigan football game with mike *Mayb* sunday-go see grandma and grandpa! then haing out with jess and kat... thats a given!
Yesterday i had soccer and then i went to the NHS vs. SHS soccer game with mike! it was fun i miss hanging out with him :)
2day i hung out with kathy i was suppose to go to the EMU game but i didnt :( oh well i had fun with kat uriah and marc! then 2mrrow i have soccer then hopefully ill be with kat again!
HOLLER Nae
FRI IS JESSICAS BIRTHDAY SHE WILL BE 17 SO EVERYONE WISH HER A HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!!