were gonna die like this you know, miserable and old.
i can feel my life changing.
its been a week.
that long already?
is that even considered long?
im not used to this.
but i like it.
<3
-"i hear its good good good goood to stick to what you know"
-"never thought ud make me perspire
never though id do u the same."
but... im realizing to become something really big in life i have to quit alot of things.
eventually i will have to quit smoking and drinking alot. i'll have to quit my partying and really work in school. i'll have to gain all these skills that ive mentally and physically lost throughout these past 3 years. i'll have to impress people who are "higher" then me and know who i really am. these people will be my "friends". my social life will disappear even faster then it is now.i'll have to really stop being me. i'll have to start over. i'll have to be responsible and wise. i wont beable to be 16 anymore.ILL HAVE TO START MY LIFE! (sso all this "life" never really started..its all bullshit) i'll be an adult trying to achieve a long time goal. and in the end....think about it.... if u didint accomplish ur goal, how that would make u feel. worthless, useless, stupid. thats my worst fear. sooo....
my mind went blank.
its been a week.
that long already?
is that even considered long?
im not used to this.
but i like it.
<3
-"i hear its good good good goood to stick to what you know"
-"never thought ud make me perspire
never though id do u the same."
but... im realizing to become something really big in life i have to quit alot of things.
eventually i will have to quit smoking and drinking alot. i'll have to quit my partying and really work in school. i'll have to gain all these skills that ive mentally and physically lost throughout these past 3 years. i'll have to impress people who are "higher" then me and know who i really am. these people will be my "friends". my social life will disappear even faster then it is now.i'll have to really stop being me. i'll have to start over. i'll have to be responsible and wise. i wont beable to be 16 anymore.ILL HAVE TO START MY LIFE! (sso all this "life" never really started..its all bullshit) i'll be an adult trying to achieve a long time goal. and in the end....think about it.... if u didint accomplish ur goal, how that would make u feel. worthless, useless, stupid. thats my worst fear. sooo....
my mind went blank.