046: You know you wanna.

[xomannysantosxo]

Okay and now I'm following the crowd.

Do it.

Leave me an anonymous comment pouring your heart out. Say anything. Tell me your stories, your secrets, those things no one ever asks but you wish to tell. Tell me about your love, your hate, your indifference, your joy. Tell me about what's inside of you when you're reading through these entries on

Comments

[anonymous]

get the fuck over yourself..seriously..nice comment you left me there..i'm not trying to take over your life..have you ever heard of two people being friends..you think i want spinner and i don't. he knows this too..do DON'T act like i'm trying to ruin your life.

[xomannysantosxo]

Get over myself? You get pissed off at me and won't even talk to me when me and Sean got together, but as soon as he got back with you you came back apologizing asking if I could forgive you. Then when it happens again you want nothing to do with me and screw trying to be friends. I don't care if you're friends with someone, it's actually no business of mine, but isn't that how it always starts? You're just friends with them until you fuck them one night after you made them pancakes.

Whatever, because I don't give a shit anymore, go make him pancakes, go have sex with him do whatever you want. It doesn't make a bit of difference to me anymore. I should have seen it coming a long ass time ago.

[anonymous]

you need to quit going from guy to guy. Lets see... spin, sean, craig, sean and spin. Wow I think I see a pattern. You should be careful cuz I doubt you want another child

[xomannysantosxo]

Thanks for the advice.

[anonymous]

if I were you I wouldn't worry about Emma getting him because lets face it, it will be over in what a month? This is Gavin your talking about...like c'mon. Manny, you know him, you've been with him, you know how it always turns out.

[xomannysantosxo]

I'm not even going to respond to that.

[anonymous]

I can't belive this now
This isn't what I planned
I lived and died and now
I just can't understand
With all the love I feel
I could never leave her
No matter what the cost
My soul 's the price to see her

Oh how I love you
The pain won't go away
Oh when I need you
You're always so far away
I cry for you
Leaving myself to blame
I died for you
I gave up everything

The pain was just to much
When I finally saw her
She's happy and in love
In love with my best friend
What makes it hurt so bad
Is that I love them both
And they will never know
For love I sold my soul

Oh how I love you
The pain won't go away
Oh when I need you
You're always so far away
I cry for you
Leaving myself to blame
I died for you
I gave up everything

[xomannysantosxo]

Wow...wish I knew who this was...Sean?

[anonymous]

GUess again..

{{I LOVE this song! Iced Earth - I Died For You}}

[xomannysantosxo]

I have no idea. Can I have a hint?

[[I seriously don't know who this is, lol. I've never heard it, but it seems cool.]]

[anonymous]

There are many things I'm not too proud of. There are many mistakes I shouldn't have made, and I regret every one of them. Seeing myself for the first time, the way I really am, scares me. Seeing myself in someone else, scares me. I realize now exactly how badly my actions hurt people. You and so many others.

There's nothing I can do to take it all back. Sorry has been used too many times and has lost all meaning. I can never promise anything, because a promise is to easily forgotten. My word no longer means anything, to anyone. I have nothing left to give, but so much to gain. I can't begin to ask for yours or anyone elses forgiveness. Somethings are better off as a gift.

I want to get to know you again Manny. I want to be who you can depend on, someone you deserved from the beginning. I just cant let go.

[xomannysantosxo]

Spinner, all you have to do is show me then. Actions are so much louder then words. The past is the past and we can't change it or dwell on it. We have to just let it go and continue living. There's things in life we all regret, but we can't change how they've turned out now.

You've got a chance to renew yourself...so just show everyone you're a changed person.

[anonymous]

I will, and then some.

I don't care about what everyone else thinks. Only you.

[xomannysantosxo]

Well I'll wait as long as I need to see that, and right now, it doesn't seem to far off.

Well I think very highly, so you have nothing to worry about.