sad
so yeah augustin is taking his A.S.V.A.B. test today for the national gaurd. it really sucks. i mean its my own fault when i get hurt b/c i am the one who decided to persure something with him even though he warned me that he would be leaving so i cant really say ne thing or do ne thing about it. it just really sucks b/c so much stuff has happened in my life i dont want to lose someone else that means so much to me. so it just kinda sucks. so i am sorry to everyone b/c i am probably going to be really upset for a while. i mean i need to deal with it b/c he is doing something that he really wants to do and i am going to support him through it all but it just really sucks. and yeah i know im retarted for even getting involved with him from the start so none of you probably feel bad for me which is understandable but yeah. i just wanted to write this. o yeah and im also stupid b/c he hasnt signed up yet so i really shoudlnt worry about it yet but i still am b/c i mean if hes taking the test then he is most likely going to go. so yeah it just really really sucks. so if i give ne of you an attitude i am really sorry but its probably b/c im really sad. so im sorry.