no matter what you say, i'm not afraid :-\
so today (daytime) was amazing. beyond amazing.
but i just hate feeling lonely. i hate knowing that everything wasnt this messed up a little while ago. i hate losing people. i feel amazing and terrible at the same time. i dont know how to stop this. i just wish someone could hold me whisper that everything was going to turn out alright. a part of my security has come crashing down and i'm not strong enough to rely on myself for the ounce of stablity that i need.
but regarless of my emotions, i leave for conneticut with mary and luci and some other cool kids tommorow. it is going to be amazing. completely undescribable. and its going to last allllllllll weekend. :-)
i just wish i didnt feel so alone.
thank God for my friends, you know i appreciate you guys and love you more than anything. but i just cant help feeling so alone in this.
but i just hate feeling lonely. i hate knowing that everything wasnt this messed up a little while ago. i hate losing people. i feel amazing and terrible at the same time. i dont know how to stop this. i just wish someone could hold me whisper that everything was going to turn out alright. a part of my security has come crashing down and i'm not strong enough to rely on myself for the ounce of stablity that i need.
but regarless of my emotions, i leave for conneticut with mary and luci and some other cool kids tommorow. it is going to be amazing. completely undescribable. and its going to last allllllllll weekend. :-)
i just wish i didnt feel so alone.
thank God for my friends, you know i appreciate you guys and love you more than anything. but i just cant help feeling so alone in this.