Remember?
Remember the Buddy Holly glasses that caught my attention initially?
Remember our first phone conversation?
Remember how I postponed that conversation because my voice was hoarse?
Remember how you told me that my cursing was "endearing"?
Remember the plans we made to go to a museum, wine tasting, and have Italian for our first date?
Remember the first two musicians you ever showed me?
Remember the day you decided to take a chance on someone you'd known four years prior instead of me?
Remember the day you told me you "made the wrong choice"?
Remember the first time we met?
Remember how I cried the first time we met?
Remember playing drunken L4D & Guitar Hero on your projector together?
Remember my first attempt at popping popcorn on the stove and some caught fire?
Remember when we decorated your Xmas tree with Big Lots decorations & a Starbucks ornament?
Remember the first time we kissed?
Remember how long it lasted?
Remember when you kissed me and told me, "I might not get this chance again"?
Remember that crazy black woman who spit at me while we were walking down the street in Pasadena? Remember when we went to the Chinese New Year festival on a whim & absolutely hated it? Remember when we drove around your neighborhood trying to steal a wifi signal for you to use so you could send a work file to KEarth? Remember when we almost beat Jurassic Park on SNES but while you napped, I accidentally tripped over the power cord & all our progress was lost? Remember drinking margaritas at 9 am? Remember when you threw spaghetti in the air during "spaghetti time"? Remember all the times I've laughed at you for making that same face in the mirror? Remember when you threw a pound of strawberries onto the street & Alhambra smelled like strawberries for an hour? Remember when we bought your new TV & spent the day watching movies on it? Remember drinking & playing games at D&B & not wanting to see 'Avatar' but to continue playing games instead? Remember when I accidentally broke your side mirror? Remember when you did a somersault and your foot made a hole in the wall? Remember the horrible, half cooked pizza we made for NYE '10? Remember laughing so hard we were crying while playing Golden Axe 3? Remember when you punched that van with your fist? Remember spilling whiskey in my purse on the way to a show? Remember you throwing poppers at the shower while I was in it? Remember when we were driving in front of Brian Brown & you were throwing pennies at his windshield? Remember every time we blew a foghorn at a person passing by your house? Remember having to fix the rolled down window on the BMW & it taking an hour to do at midnight? Remember when we sketched out the characters from 'Jurassic Park' while watching the movie? Remember when there was an earthquake & you rushed up & told me to get up & I just sat on the floor and laughed at you? Remember when we found a gigantic stuffed dog on the side of the road, later to be "Lynchoe"? Remember when we stayed up late watching almost the entire series of 'Spaceballs: The Animated Series' & various Addams Family episodes? Remember when we improved the way people looked in photoshop from HotorNot.com? Remember when we played the drinking game to 'True Blood' every time someone said "Sookie"? Remember the dancing macaroni I drew on your butt? Remember the bulls-eye you drew on my left tit? Remember when I actually saw a centipede at your house & refused to leave my shoes outside? Remember dancing like a "Jew" & a "black" at Lori's? Remember our "eventful" Pasadena wine tasting day/night? Remember spending an entire morning in bed watching Huell Howser? Remember when you mooned the cars driving by your house from your front door? Do you remember where you put your giggles at? Remember walking around the grocery store with a whoopie cushion, farting it at every passing person & having to control our laughter? Remember when you greeted me at the bathroom with nothing on but a plastic grocery bag?
Remember the first time we made love? Remember how insatiable we both were? Remember when you made me my first ever breakfast in bed? Remember the heart you drew in my palm with your finger while we watched the play "Nevermore"? Remember having champagne in your backyard by your fire pit at night? Remember baking Christmas cookies while drinking wine & slow dancing in the kitchen to Billie Holiday on vinyl? Remember how many days and nights I used to spend with you? Remember having delightful conversation, wine, and cheese in your kitchen while it rained outside? Remember when I came over wearing no panties? Remember embracing & kissing each other during a late DTLA night as the metro passed; the wind blowing past us? Remember asking me what color I preferred so you could buy me my own comfy blanket in that color? Remember us laying into each other on your couch during a rainy night, as you read out of & explained to me your film/Academy Award winners book? Remember when you gave me my birthday gifts of GOW2, a sketchbook, & a manatee plush? Remember when we spent Christmas together? And New Years? And Valentine's Day? And Easter? And two of your birthdays? Remember all those stickies I put on your door that each had something I loved about you? Remember how I used to stay up all night and talk with you on AIM during your night shifts? Remember when I gave you my fortune cookie fortune? Remember when we almost had sex in the back of a cab? Remember the 7 hour phone conversations? Remember the little note I left you in your wallet before you went to Chicago? Remember when we stayed up till 7 am talking/cuddling/play fighting in your bed? Do you remember any of the many, many AIM convos I've saved? Remember when we thought we broke your headboard? Remember all the pieces of gum we used to stick on the side of your bed? Remember when you drew me that elephant holding a fortune cookie? Remember when you started calling me "Smiles" because you loved my smile so much & "Jenn Jon"? Remember the long bus rides back from shows with my head on your shoulder, and your kisses on my forehead? Remember slow dancing in the dark in your living room to Billy Joel? Remember when I drove to your work to bring you Goldfish, a Rockstar, and an apple you never ate? Remember when I was having a break down and you drove out to Palm Springs to pick me up so I could get away for a few days? Remember the night we got high, listened to Dylan in the dark, wrapped up in each other on your couch? Remember when you mailed me two dollars that you defaced (that I still have) so that I could buy a clown cone? Remember when you were having a difficult day and I called you all the way from Switzerland so we could talk? Remember when you made me chicken noodle soup because I was sick?
Remember when you told me, "I can't lose you again"? Remember when I told you that you had already lost me & you broke into a cold sweat right there & then, on the phone? Remember how we both held back so much? Remember those long letters I wrote you? Remember when you told me you don't believe in "soul mates" but I made you believe the concept? Remember when we talked every day? Remember when you told me, "I'd be an idiot not to end up with you, huh"? Remember when I told you why the song, "Here We Go" means so much to me? Remember the fight where you called me a "conniving cunt" that ended in us both in tears? Remember when you told me you thought we would have beautiful kids? Remember when you told me, "I have never needed, missed, or loved anyone more in my life than you"? Remember when there was no animosity or bitterness between us? Remember when you "anonymously" said, "You're simply one of the best things to ever happen to me"? Remember the way you used to make me feel? Remember how you told me, "You make me question everything"? Remember how I used to get butterflies every single time I walked up to your door? Remember when you gave others the chance to fail or succeed with you and not me? Remember when you held my face in your hands, as makeup & tears streamed down my face & you told me how beautiful I looked? Remember when you would call late at night and ask me why weren't we together? Remember when I had that horrible cough & as you left for work, we held/kissed each other & you told me how much you loved me & how you would take care of me when you got home? Remember all the road trips we planned and never went on? Remember when I told you how much I miss YOU? Remember when I told you I have to accept that things are different now? Remember when I gave you the key to my heart?
Remember when I thought you were "the one"?
I do.
Remember our first phone conversation?
Remember how I postponed that conversation because my voice was hoarse?
Remember how you told me that my cursing was "endearing"?
Remember the plans we made to go to a museum, wine tasting, and have Italian for our first date?
Remember the first two musicians you ever showed me?
Remember the day you decided to take a chance on someone you'd known four years prior instead of me?
Remember the day you told me you "made the wrong choice"?
Remember the first time we met?
Remember how I cried the first time we met?
Remember playing drunken L4D & Guitar Hero on your projector together?
Remember my first attempt at popping popcorn on the stove and some caught fire?
Remember when we decorated your Xmas tree with Big Lots decorations & a Starbucks ornament?
Remember the first time we kissed?
Remember how long it lasted?
Remember when you kissed me and told me, "I might not get this chance again"?
Remember that crazy black woman who spit at me while we were walking down the street in Pasadena? Remember when we went to the Chinese New Year festival on a whim & absolutely hated it? Remember when we drove around your neighborhood trying to steal a wifi signal for you to use so you could send a work file to KEarth? Remember when we almost beat Jurassic Park on SNES but while you napped, I accidentally tripped over the power cord & all our progress was lost? Remember drinking margaritas at 9 am? Remember when you threw spaghetti in the air during "spaghetti time"? Remember all the times I've laughed at you for making that same face in the mirror? Remember when you threw a pound of strawberries onto the street & Alhambra smelled like strawberries for an hour? Remember when we bought your new TV & spent the day watching movies on it? Remember drinking & playing games at D&B & not wanting to see 'Avatar' but to continue playing games instead? Remember when I accidentally broke your side mirror? Remember when you did a somersault and your foot made a hole in the wall? Remember the horrible, half cooked pizza we made for NYE '10? Remember laughing so hard we were crying while playing Golden Axe 3? Remember when you punched that van with your fist? Remember spilling whiskey in my purse on the way to a show? Remember you throwing poppers at the shower while I was in it? Remember when we were driving in front of Brian Brown & you were throwing pennies at his windshield? Remember every time we blew a foghorn at a person passing by your house? Remember having to fix the rolled down window on the BMW & it taking an hour to do at midnight? Remember when we sketched out the characters from 'Jurassic Park' while watching the movie? Remember when there was an earthquake & you rushed up & told me to get up & I just sat on the floor and laughed at you? Remember when we found a gigantic stuffed dog on the side of the road, later to be "Lynchoe"? Remember when we stayed up late watching almost the entire series of 'Spaceballs: The Animated Series' & various Addams Family episodes? Remember when we improved the way people looked in photoshop from HotorNot.com? Remember when we played the drinking game to 'True Blood' every time someone said "Sookie"? Remember the dancing macaroni I drew on your butt? Remember the bulls-eye you drew on my left tit? Remember when I actually saw a centipede at your house & refused to leave my shoes outside? Remember dancing like a "Jew" & a "black" at Lori's? Remember our "eventful" Pasadena wine tasting day/night? Remember spending an entire morning in bed watching Huell Howser? Remember when you mooned the cars driving by your house from your front door? Do you remember where you put your giggles at? Remember walking around the grocery store with a whoopie cushion, farting it at every passing person & having to control our laughter? Remember when you greeted me at the bathroom with nothing on but a plastic grocery bag?
Remember the first time we made love? Remember how insatiable we both were? Remember when you made me my first ever breakfast in bed? Remember the heart you drew in my palm with your finger while we watched the play "Nevermore"? Remember having champagne in your backyard by your fire pit at night? Remember baking Christmas cookies while drinking wine & slow dancing in the kitchen to Billie Holiday on vinyl? Remember how many days and nights I used to spend with you? Remember having delightful conversation, wine, and cheese in your kitchen while it rained outside? Remember when I came over wearing no panties? Remember embracing & kissing each other during a late DTLA night as the metro passed; the wind blowing past us? Remember asking me what color I preferred so you could buy me my own comfy blanket in that color? Remember us laying into each other on your couch during a rainy night, as you read out of & explained to me your film/Academy Award winners book? Remember when you gave me my birthday gifts of GOW2, a sketchbook, & a manatee plush? Remember when we spent Christmas together? And New Years? And Valentine's Day? And Easter? And two of your birthdays? Remember all those stickies I put on your door that each had something I loved about you? Remember how I used to stay up all night and talk with you on AIM during your night shifts? Remember when I gave you my fortune cookie fortune? Remember when we almost had sex in the back of a cab? Remember the 7 hour phone conversations? Remember the little note I left you in your wallet before you went to Chicago? Remember when we stayed up till 7 am talking/cuddling/play fighting in your bed? Do you remember any of the many, many AIM convos I've saved? Remember when we thought we broke your headboard? Remember all the pieces of gum we used to stick on the side of your bed? Remember when you drew me that elephant holding a fortune cookie? Remember when you started calling me "Smiles" because you loved my smile so much & "Jenn Jon"? Remember the long bus rides back from shows with my head on your shoulder, and your kisses on my forehead? Remember slow dancing in the dark in your living room to Billy Joel? Remember when I drove to your work to bring you Goldfish, a Rockstar, and an apple you never ate? Remember when I was having a break down and you drove out to Palm Springs to pick me up so I could get away for a few days? Remember the night we got high, listened to Dylan in the dark, wrapped up in each other on your couch? Remember when you mailed me two dollars that you defaced (that I still have) so that I could buy a clown cone? Remember when you were having a difficult day and I called you all the way from Switzerland so we could talk? Remember when you made me chicken noodle soup because I was sick?
Remember when you told me, "I can't lose you again"? Remember when I told you that you had already lost me & you broke into a cold sweat right there & then, on the phone? Remember how we both held back so much? Remember those long letters I wrote you? Remember when you told me you don't believe in "soul mates" but I made you believe the concept? Remember when we talked every day? Remember when you told me, "I'd be an idiot not to end up with you, huh"? Remember when I told you why the song, "Here We Go" means so much to me? Remember the fight where you called me a "conniving cunt" that ended in us both in tears? Remember when you told me you thought we would have beautiful kids? Remember when you told me, "I have never needed, missed, or loved anyone more in my life than you"? Remember when there was no animosity or bitterness between us? Remember when you "anonymously" said, "You're simply one of the best things to ever happen to me"? Remember the way you used to make me feel? Remember how you told me, "You make me question everything"? Remember how I used to get butterflies every single time I walked up to your door? Remember when you gave others the chance to fail or succeed with you and not me? Remember when you held my face in your hands, as makeup & tears streamed down my face & you told me how beautiful I looked? Remember when you would call late at night and ask me why weren't we together? Remember when I had that horrible cough & as you left for work, we held/kissed each other & you told me how much you loved me & how you would take care of me when you got home? Remember all the road trips we planned and never went on? Remember when I told you how much I miss YOU? Remember when I told you I have to accept that things are different now? Remember when I gave you the key to my heart?
Remember when I thought you were "the one"?
I do.