WHY DO I CARE ABOUT HIM?
I swear... i just.
ugh, he makes me so frustrated... i sent this message to my friend...
&as you can see, by the way its written,
this is giving me a world of trouble.
" well, when i finally talked to matt (kuz cory is a complete phone hog) he was all chill...
it was kinda... nice.
and he swore that he cares about me, and that he doesn't always talk to me kuz he's just worried and doesn't know what to say.
and i said 'you're just bullshitting me.'
he said no, he was too baked to bullshit me, and to let it resonate.
he kept randomly saying that 'rachel, will you just let it resonate? for me?"
then i randomly said 'i wanna bang someone'
he mumbled what sounded like 'me too, i wanna bang someone'
and then he asked where i lived, and was quietly talking to cory...
idk, it was weird... like, no way matt, you're just being random... right?
and at the end he was gonna go help cory finish off his weed, and i begged him not to, to just go to sleep, for me.
&he said 'only if you do something for me."
"okay matt, what do you want me to do for you?"
"let it resonate rachel, do that for me?"
we argued a bit on that, and then i said okay, go to sleep.
they both said goodnight, and i said 'i heart you guys'
"we heart you too."
"no, matt, i really mean it, i care about you two."
"i know, we care about you too."
"'night."
"good night rachel, let it resonate."
...ughhh.
--kyen."
any advice? he's been sober for almost a year...
then he got stoned the night before last&last night.
&i still care too much.
ugh, he makes me so frustrated... i sent this message to my friend...
&as you can see, by the way its written,
this is giving me a world of trouble.
" well, when i finally talked to matt (kuz cory is a complete phone hog) he was all chill...
it was kinda... nice.
and he swore that he cares about me, and that he doesn't always talk to me kuz he's just worried and doesn't know what to say.
and i said 'you're just bullshitting me.'
he said no, he was too baked to bullshit me, and to let it resonate.
he kept randomly saying that 'rachel, will you just let it resonate? for me?"
then i randomly said 'i wanna bang someone'
he mumbled what sounded like 'me too, i wanna bang someone'
and then he asked where i lived, and was quietly talking to cory...
idk, it was weird... like, no way matt, you're just being random... right?
and at the end he was gonna go help cory finish off his weed, and i begged him not to, to just go to sleep, for me.
&he said 'only if you do something for me."
"okay matt, what do you want me to do for you?"
"let it resonate rachel, do that for me?"
we argued a bit on that, and then i said okay, go to sleep.
they both said goodnight, and i said 'i heart you guys'
"we heart you too."
"no, matt, i really mean it, i care about you two."
"i know, we care about you too."
"'night."
"good night rachel, let it resonate."
...ughhh.
--kyen."
any advice? he's been sober for almost a year...
then he got stoned the night before last&last night.
&i still care too much.