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[xolost_in_himox]

I fucking hate it how people tell me one thing and then go and do another. Jenna, my lover, is like the only one that's getting it right now/It's so easy to be all happy and yeah and shit in person, but then when I'm by myself or near close friends they can tell when something is wrong, and even when I tell them nothing is, they keep on persisting and eventually get it out of me..but then there are those people who never care and are just like,"Okay.." after a few tries and I just don't know what to do. Everything is all pissing me off I am always getting bitched at. Jenna knows what it's like because of her parents, and then my mom is always pointing out every fucking mistake that I do..and then the people that I've always thought "cared" about me turn out just to be a buncha fucking poserz..and I just don't know how much more I can stand because it's just all fucking making me mad. James is like the only fucking on besides Jenna that's getting it..and I mean Sam is and all too, but I don't feel comfortable talking with some people about some ceratin subjects, no offense to anyone at all..but god..how much must I be put through just to get the hell away? I'm trying to keep this shit together..but I'm just falling apart and everyone doesn't see it and there is nothing I can do to save myself anymore...
Just comment fucking whatever the hell you want. I can honestly say that I can care less...

I fucking hate you for every fucking thing!!!!!