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From Jan. 23 of my own diary
I didnt want to hold on to you on the four wheeler because if you fell, I fell too. But then I realized you would never let anything happen to me. And if you did, would it really be that bad to fall down with you? That's trust. Complete trust in someone else. That means you have to love me enough to not let anything happen to me. And you do. Something as simple as a crazy four-wheeler ride taught me that. That afternoon taught me you'd risk everything for me. Thats love. I don't care what everyone else says, we're in love. And it scares me to let go. To let go of the bolted on bars and just grap your waist. But I realized if I'm going to do this I should dive right in. Yes, one day we will break up. Even though I never want to admit that and pray every night we'll last forever, we'll end one day. But I want to know that I loved you with everything I had. I held back nothing because someone before you broke my heart a little to much. I want to know that our relationship was strong enough for you to care if I got thrown off that four-wheeler when you knew I was scared for my life. I want to know that I wasted no time and no effort on anything about us. From the moment we started becoming close, I knew I wanted to be with you. I can't really explain why or tell you some romantic story of love at first sight. I just knew that we should be together. And I fought for that. I wanted to know at the end of day, win or lose, I tried my best to show you I'm the one for you. And I am. And some nights I bring tears to my eyes just thinking about how incredible you are. Thats love. When you listen to me cry over stupid stuff but care as if the world was ending at that moment. Thats love. So when that days comes that we should part, I want you to know that I loved you with every piece of my heart. And the ones that were broken, you replaced. Isn't it funny how one afternoon you can fall in love all over again?
I didnt want to hold on to you on the four wheeler because if you fell, I fell too. But then I realized you would never let anything happen to me. And if you did, would it really be that bad to fall down with you? That's trust. Complete trust in someone else. That means you have to love me enough to not let anything happen to me. And you do. Something as simple as a crazy four-wheeler ride taught me that. That afternoon taught me you'd risk everything for me. Thats love. I don't care what everyone else says, we're in love. And it scares me to let go. To let go of the bolted on bars and just grap your waist. But I realized if I'm going to do this I should dive right in. Yes, one day we will break up. Even though I never want to admit that and pray every night we'll last forever, we'll end one day. But I want to know that I loved you with everything I had. I held back nothing because someone before you broke my heart a little to much. I want to know that our relationship was strong enough for you to care if I got thrown off that four-wheeler when you knew I was scared for my life. I want to know that I wasted no time and no effort on anything about us. From the moment we started becoming close, I knew I wanted to be with you. I can't really explain why or tell you some romantic story of love at first sight. I just knew that we should be together. And I fought for that. I wanted to know at the end of day, win or lose, I tried my best to show you I'm the one for you. And I am. And some nights I bring tears to my eyes just thinking about how incredible you are. Thats love. When you listen to me cry over stupid stuff but care as if the world was ending at that moment. Thats love. So when that days comes that we should part, I want you to know that I loved you with every piece of my heart. And the ones that were broken, you replaced. Isn't it funny how one afternoon you can fall in love all over again?