Everything you are falls from the sky like a star
there's nothing like the deep breaths
after laughing so hard
nothing in the world is like a sore stomach
for all the right reasons
-- you're my best friends & always will be
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Today was such a beautiful day and it made me think of so many wonderful things. Mainly, the people I am blessed to have in my life. Lately I feel so alive and so full of love, and it’s so overwhelming to feel so much love, but then again it’s incredible and amazing and I wouldn’t give it up for anything. Most of all, I have three amazing friends. If time has taught me anything it’s that the friends you were meant to have around will always be there, no matter how hard, no matter what mistakes, no matter what. Three people have shown me that they have an undying faith in me, and for that I have to be grateful. Kelly, Douglas, Tracey. I can honestly say that without these three, I really don’t know what I would do. They are the ones I share the most laughs, smiles, tears, hardships, anger, and memories with. No matter what hell we may go through, it’s always worth it. And every day I love them more, and we grow. We don’t have perfect friendships, but it’s part of why it’s such an amazing thing. We know how much we mean to each other, and at the same time we still continue to grow and learn and that’s such a wonderful thing. I am amazed at how I can be blessed with three great friends, and I love them dearly.
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How wonderful it is that
nobody needs to wait a single moment
before starting to improve the world?
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Sometimes you cannot believe what you see…
you have to believe what you feel.
And if you are ever going to have people trust you,
you must feel that you can trust them too;;
even when you’re in the dark...
Even when you’re falling.
I’ve had so much time to sit back and place where my feelings are with this “budding” relationship I have going with Gary. At first I was just so scared to really open up to him because I was afraid that maybe it was finally too good to be true, that it wasn’t real. But then I realized I would regret it a lot more if I didn’t open up because being patient can only do so much, there comes a point in time when you have to be willing to open yourself to hurt and pain and hope that it won’t come to that. Luckily, it hasn’t come to that. It’s created this amazing sense of love and understanding within me, and somehow I’ve come to peace with all the trouble I’ve gone through in regards to him. He amazes me. And not just because I think I am falling for him, but because on top of everything, what we have is based on a friendship. It’s also very open, and I enjoy that. I feel like I could tell him anything, and vice versa, and I trust him enough to know he would never do anything to hurt me. I no longer care if others have something to say about it, because this summer is behind us and everything has taken such a drastic change that yes, it still seems unreal, it’s so happy though. He’s really a great person, and I really feel blessed to have someone like him in my life, as well as my friends. He’s become single handedly one of the most important people in my life, and I said it before, but I will say it again, I really cannot wait to see where our future will leads us, because I think we have something amazing that most people never experience.
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You are you ,And I am me.
Youll do your thing, and Ill do mine.
And if we end up together in the end,
then its beautiful.
HE is beautiful… to me.
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You can't live your life for other people.
You've got to do what's right for you,
even if it hurts some people you love..
… so true. But… that past is finally behind me for the most part, which is also something I am grateful for because now they and I can truly be happy.
Anyway, I have a lot more to write but
I can’t seem to find the words at the moment,
I’m seriously in another one of those
happy holy crap love everything moods.
More tomorrow. Or later, whatever.
‘nitey.