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well im updating even though no one rele reads this anymore. Lifes been amazing lately. Hectic...but amazing. Graduating high school was such a big step for everyone...it was something i was waiting for my whole life. Just cuz i knew the next step was college. Ive definitely changed a lot over 4 years and yes they were good and bad changes. No one ever changes to become perfect...its not possible. Ive made some new friends and lost touch with some old ones but its life. Ive stopped worrying so much about wat other ppl think of me. I mean if they dont like the way i am then why should i talk to them. Everything these past 4 years has gone by so fast. Freshmen year seemed like only yesterday. Like i was just setting foot into jackson memorial. Wat a scared little freshmen i was. I got involved in stuff and then started to settle in. Sophomore year i matured a little and began to look at the big picture...my future. ROTC was working out well and band was just the way i wanted it plus the usual drama. I had my time with boys like every girl and then i met one boy who changed a lot of my life...but for the better. I met billy through rotc and we basically knew we were right for each other. We both kinda came from 2 different worlds which made everything so great. Junior year rolled around and it was time to start thinking about college. Not just college in general but the college i wanted to spend 4 great years at. Its a scary thought. I narrowed my options down to 3...udel upenn and rutgers. Then i applied. Junior formal came around and it was great. And obviously only the begining to an expensive 2 years. Junior year was a little hard for me when it came to drama and changes. I made my mistakes and learned from them. It was kinda like my over the hill year. Things smoothed out in the end though. Senior year...the one we all cant wait to get to. I cant say my senior year was perfect cuz nothing ever is but it was definitely wat i wanted. Band finished off great with tons of great memories. ROTC was stressful but when isnt it...i had to deal. I pulled through and felt like i was very successful in the end. Prom came around and now i knew time was getting shorter. Prom was amazing. More than i could ever ask for. Everything was going my way. Great dress...beautiful day...and an extremely amazing boyfriend. After prom topped it all off. Once finals hit we knew it was all over. Gradation practice started and we all began to say we were ready to move on...but were we rele ready? Im still to this day not sure but its not like we can turn bak time now. Graduation day was a reality check for everyone...knowing we were all going our separate ways no matter how close we all were...and man was our class close. We lost a few great classmates over the years and it hurt us all...Paul, Julie, Shatone, and Kiera were all wonderful people and i know that if they were still here they would continue to be successful throughout life. I miss them all so much. Summer was the icing to the cake. Knowing we were all going to our colleges and werent going to see each other much once school started, everyone tried everything to hang out all the time. All the random hang outs, movies and dinners were great. Myrtle beach was so much fun too. Work is as usual the time consumer of my summer but i still cant complain about the job...it pays fairly and its a great environment with a lot of ppl ive been around for years. I wouldnt change it for anything. First aid just adds to my load of stuff but i love it. Its something im gonna miss when im at college. it was like my home away from home. everyone was like a family to me. Especially the poppe's. I love them to death. They have always taken me in and helped me in every way they could ever think of. Ive learned so much from them and hope to one day truly repay them. My baby has been with me every step of the way since sophomore year and i love him to death. I know he will do great in college and I know that he'll find wat he truly wants to be and do everything possible to achieve it. I have complete faith in him. I know that college will not change us cuz its gonna take more than distance to keep us apart. Were meant to b and thats the way its staying. Now that its college time its time for me to make some slight changes to my interests and then i should be set for a while. Its time for a change of scenery anyway. Im gonna miss my family and friends so much when i go to college but i know they'll always be there for me when i need their help. Lifes just the way ive always wanted it and i dont want it to change now.