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[xokyla_marisaxo]

hey guys i know its been a while but my mom effed up my computer and i havent been able to write sorry anyways alot has been going on me and scotty arent anymore i dont think anywayz i dont i dont even know if we were anything he says we were but who knows as much as that boi lies anywayz i have been talking to josh alot lately its really made me happy but seriously he has a girlfriend and besides its been way to long for that door to ever open again unfortuently but he is always in my heart and i will always love that boi no matter what..and a part of me knows that he will always care bout me to but i know he loves her now and thats ok he's moved on and so have i we both have different lifes anywayz on a different note i heard today that jenny might be pregent again i dont know if i belive it though she craves attention so much its kinda sad i fell bad for her actually sometimes...anyways me and angel have been haveing soOoOo much fun togather aww her and shane broke up i fell sooo bad for her she liked him sooo much he gave her a reason that was really good and we both belived it at first but now were not so sure idk guys are all lame oh today was the first day of school i was kinda sad i've never missed a first day of school and its hard to think that last year was my last year of ever having a first day cause my birthday is in 26 days and when i turn 16 i am getting my ged...idk really what all to say things have juss been soo crazy around here but its been a great summer and i've had soOoOo much fun even with the gay boi problems to tell the honest truth i do kinda miss scotty when he wasnt being a total ass he made me laugh bout stupid little things but all well when it all comes down to it scotty juss isnt the guy for me sometimes i fell like i've already meet the guy i am soppose to be with...but then again yes josh well always be my first love but he wont be my last i am to young for him to be my last lol wow its 2:16 am if i had to go to school tomrro i would be in big trouble lol oh this past weekend was alot of fun friday me shane and jordan all stayed the night at angels and sat danny and thomas picked me up and went to this girl michelles party it was great i saw my girl sarah there wich i was kinda relieved cause i didnt really know anyone else there but i meet this really hot guy i was flirting with like all night it was great lol and tomrro is fri again and we are gonna have a blast no bois at all girls night only lol right angel well unless he's super hot!! lol alrighty guys well i'm gonna go love ya Ky!

i pretend i'm glad you went away but these four walls are closeing more everyday and i'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me...i could clown i put on a show the pain is real even if nobody knows and i'm crying inside and nobody knows it but me...a million years from now you know i'll be loveing you still...*