ummm yea
OK, so yea... I guess I should do a brief update.
Back at UCF for Spring 06 - still not sure if I'm graduating in May or not... I know - way to wait until last minute...
OK, I'm not myself these days. The fact I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow - nevertheless in a few months - so not like me. The fact that I cannot rationalize any decision I'm making - kinda weird... The fact that I have done some things I never thought I'd do - amazes me... I feel like I've lost myself, yet it's only now that I'm coming into my true self - I don't know what is going on with me. No I'm not on drugs or anything, I just have a new attitude toward life... so strange... All about running wild and free... and doing things for myself... which is why the question of staying at UCF longer is SO hard... would I be staying for myself... or for my sisters/friends who i'd leave... would i graduate for my parents... or for myself... TOUGH STUFF.
Yes, I have changed. A LOT. No more people-pleasing... and I'm a LOT happier.
Back at UCF for Spring 06 - still not sure if I'm graduating in May or not... I know - way to wait until last minute...
OK, I'm not myself these days. The fact I don't know what I'm doing tomorrow - nevertheless in a few months - so not like me. The fact that I cannot rationalize any decision I'm making - kinda weird... The fact that I have done some things I never thought I'd do - amazes me... I feel like I've lost myself, yet it's only now that I'm coming into my true self - I don't know what is going on with me. No I'm not on drugs or anything, I just have a new attitude toward life... so strange... All about running wild and free... and doing things for myself... which is why the question of staying at UCF longer is SO hard... would I be staying for myself... or for my sisters/friends who i'd leave... would i graduate for my parents... or for myself... TOUGH STUFF.
Yes, I have changed. A LOT. No more people-pleasing... and I'm a LOT happier.