Jan 23, 2005 12:02
- - well .. this is how my weekend is so far..
Friday night - - I studied for a lil.. then me and sarah wanted
to go to the game cuz all the girls were meeting there to go to
dinner.. so me and sarah asked her parents for a ride and they got
pissed at her so we walked down to my house to ask my parents.. (( idk
why i would even think about doing that .. i was really dumb and naive
)) and i asked my parents.. and they were like.. "ummm we're really
nice and warm in here so no " .. soo yeah me and sarah ended up walking
from my house to the school . Probably the worst thing ive had to do
cuz i felt like my legs were gunna fall off but whatever.. so we got to
the game.. and all like 17 of us girls went to Fuddruckers which was
alot of fun. then after it we went to behans for about an hour .. and
then i went home.
Saturday - - .. so since me and danny could only hang out for a lil
bit, i went there at around 11:30. But first we stopped at the florist
to pick up flowers or a plant for dannys mom cuz it was her bday. So me
and my mom were in the florist and we were lookin around and then the
guy that worked there came up to us and was like ... "do u need
help?".. and my mom was like.. "yeahh we need to buy something but we
dont know waht... its for a bday" and hes like.. "ohh for who?" and my
mom ssaid "for her boyfriends mom".. - - wow u have nooo idea how
shocked i was. like sshe was serious, she didnt laugh or anything to
hint that she was kidding. i was gunna correct her and say that hes not
my boyfriend.. but i decided not to cuz i realized its better that way
. but yeah so that was good i guess.soo yeahhh then i went to dannys.
and then we hung out till about 4 cuz then the roads started getting
really really bad. then my parents came and picked me up and ruined my
day again like always. I told them in the car how dannys parents wanna
invite them over for dinner.. and when i said it they didnt say a
single thing. Not even like a "ohh thats very nice of them". nope..
just total silence. i really hate them. their sooo fucked up. Dannys
parents try so hard to like talk to my parents and get to know them
more and my parents not only make no effort possible, but they go out
of their way to not get to know danny and his family. I fucking hate
them, theres no way possible that i came from them. I hate how they
are, and what they do, and their personalities. Im sooo thankful that
im not like them in any way. If i was, everyone would hate me too.
Today -- today i was gunna go to dannys moms bday party at their
aunt megans but my parents wont let me. Cus their just assholes like
that. i really really hate it when i have to stay home. it drives me
crazy.. i cant stand it here. how do they not notice that i never smile
here or i never laugh. And if i do, its cuz im in my room by myself on
the phone or watching a funny movie. I wish they knew how much family
meant to me. Not this family .. but how i always wished i had a really
close family. i guess it wouldnt matter if they knew though, cuz if
they tried to make this family close.. i would just push them all away
cuz its too late for them to make this family close. I can forgive but
ill never ever be able to forget. Theyve done wayyy too much damage to
me.
- - well tomorrow theres no school. thats gunna suck if i have to stay
home. idk what im gunna do if that happens.. but yeah i gotta go ..
Looking in your Eyes.. Seeing all i [ N E E D ]
Everything you are is everything to me *
--> These are the moments
.. i know heavan must exist.
--> These are the moments
i know all i need is THIS<3
i have all ive waited for....
and i could not ask for more
[ <3<3i love my danny ; 9.29 ]