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pittman still wont talk to me...its really pissing me off...i try to call him and he just hangs up on me...people keep telling me its not worth it and if he really cared then he wouldnt be putting me through this...but i dont want to believe them...i hate this...i hate me...i hate life...there is no point...why me...why me...why me...thats all i keep asking myself over and over again..i want to so badly just let go...of everything...i hate it...everytime i call him he says "stop calling me.!" he wont trust me that i know what i am doing...god damnit why wont he trust me...i hate this...these are my final words...i love anthony john pittman...i hate me...goodnight.