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so much has happened since the last time i updated. that's the thing about college, you spend so much time with people that you could make friends (and lose them) within a week.
i came across the quote, "Love the people who treat you right, forget about those that don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it; if it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised it'd be worth it." i thought it really matched the lessons that i've learned since i've gotten here, especially in the past week... basically everything was blown out of proportion by skeats. he made me out to be a horrible person in front of mikayla and molly, just so he can win their friendship through sympathy. its sad that they don't realize that everything he does is for attention, anyone that's met him can tell you that, yet they believe him.... so their friend kate, who doesn't even know me, bitched me out saturday... it really bothered me at first but then i thought about it- why would i want that type of person as a friend anyway? i want people to judge me based off of what they see, not off of a rumer they heard. i've barely talked to that group of friends since, and i plan on keeping it that way until things cool down... the funny thing is i think that they are finally seeing the reality of the situation as they spend more time with skeats.... so i've been hanging out with brian, jay, and everyone else from their hallway alot more lately. they're so much fun to be with and there's alot less drama associated with them. i've also been working alot lately, and i'm hoping my hours won't die down again because it's nice hanging out with everyone from zumiez when i need to get away from saint rose. i think i also realized that i spend alot of time trying to please other people, and not enough time trying to make myself happy. even though i've learned alot since i got here, there's alot i haven't figured out yet. i need to take some time to figure out what i want and what i'm doing with my life.
i went home september 29th to visit ryan and my family. it was such a relaxing weekend, i had a really good time. no matter how many guys i hang out with here, none of them compare to the way he makes me feel.... it's like i love him so much that i am completely incapable of being with anyone else, and that's an awesome feeling to have again... even though it's hard having ryan two hours away, it's comforting knowing that he's there for me...
so much more i can say right now, but i'll leave it at that for now
i came across the quote, "Love the people who treat you right, forget about those that don't, and believe that everything happens for a reason. If you get a chance, take it; if it changes your life, let it. Nobody said it'd be easy, they just promised it'd be worth it." i thought it really matched the lessons that i've learned since i've gotten here, especially in the past week... basically everything was blown out of proportion by skeats. he made me out to be a horrible person in front of mikayla and molly, just so he can win their friendship through sympathy. its sad that they don't realize that everything he does is for attention, anyone that's met him can tell you that, yet they believe him.... so their friend kate, who doesn't even know me, bitched me out saturday... it really bothered me at first but then i thought about it- why would i want that type of person as a friend anyway? i want people to judge me based off of what they see, not off of a rumer they heard. i've barely talked to that group of friends since, and i plan on keeping it that way until things cool down... the funny thing is i think that they are finally seeing the reality of the situation as they spend more time with skeats.... so i've been hanging out with brian, jay, and everyone else from their hallway alot more lately. they're so much fun to be with and there's alot less drama associated with them. i've also been working alot lately, and i'm hoping my hours won't die down again because it's nice hanging out with everyone from zumiez when i need to get away from saint rose. i think i also realized that i spend alot of time trying to please other people, and not enough time trying to make myself happy. even though i've learned alot since i got here, there's alot i haven't figured out yet. i need to take some time to figure out what i want and what i'm doing with my life.
i went home september 29th to visit ryan and my family. it was such a relaxing weekend, i had a really good time. no matter how many guys i hang out with here, none of them compare to the way he makes me feel.... it's like i love him so much that i am completely incapable of being with anyone else, and that's an awesome feeling to have again... even though it's hard having ryan two hours away, it's comforting knowing that he's there for me...
so much more i can say right now, but i'll leave it at that for now