i don't make a very good adult
i really can't do this.
i'm sick of breaking down. i'm sick of freaking out. no one seems to understand. no one knows how i do it. i don't know how i do it. i don't do it really.
i can't hold two practically full time jobs, the psych lab and be a full time student.
my grades suck, i get double-booked, i'm overworked, i have little social life, i lose friends consistently because they think i just don't care.
i do care. i'm not lying when i say i'm busy or working or breaking down. i really am. and i really, really, REALLY care about all of you. more so than i'll ever be able to show. and the only thing i regret in my life is not having the time to keep up with all of you as much as i want to be.
so please forgive me.
i'm doing my absolute best.
i'm breaking down.
i can't please everyone.
i can't please anyone.
i can't even keep my own life going.
my head is spinning.
i don't know up from down anymore.
and this summer doesn't hold much promise for me.
take out the homework but add many many more hours of work.
i just hope i have time to work out and at least one day a week that i can spend in the sun or just seeing my friends. and also that i can make it home sometimes. because i really miss my family. and i really miss those friends from home that i never see. i really really do.
i'm tired. and running on empty.
i'm sick of breaking down. i'm sick of freaking out. no one seems to understand. no one knows how i do it. i don't know how i do it. i don't do it really.
i can't hold two practically full time jobs, the psych lab and be a full time student.
my grades suck, i get double-booked, i'm overworked, i have little social life, i lose friends consistently because they think i just don't care.
i do care. i'm not lying when i say i'm busy or working or breaking down. i really am. and i really, really, REALLY care about all of you. more so than i'll ever be able to show. and the only thing i regret in my life is not having the time to keep up with all of you as much as i want to be.
so please forgive me.
i'm doing my absolute best.
i'm breaking down.
i can't please everyone.
i can't please anyone.
i can't even keep my own life going.
my head is spinning.
i don't know up from down anymore.
and this summer doesn't hold much promise for me.
take out the homework but add many many more hours of work.
i just hope i have time to work out and at least one day a week that i can spend in the sun or just seeing my friends. and also that i can make it home sometimes. because i really miss my family. and i really miss those friends from home that i never see. i really really do.
i'm tired. and running on empty.