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[xojesox]

life isn't fair.. i hate it so much .. im not happy .. i hate evrything about my self .. im so fucking alone its disgusting .. i want to move away from this place .. and go some where far away all by my self to start off new .. meet new pple .. do new things .. just re live life .. keeping all the present in the past .. IM NOT FUCKING GOOD ENOUGH

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[lindsaysaysay]

ur not online, so I'll suggest something;
i see ppl turn to shit when they get a steady boyfriend in highschool. unless they're mature enough for it, which is rare. yeah, dont take that in a mean way, but..ive seen it happen.
but that's not advice, so lemmy start with poems:

it's the craziest kind of contentment
to walk across the floor
to an old dresser with a
cracked mirror-
see myself, ugly,
grinning at it all.
what matters most is
how well you
walk through the
fire.

and..

It's never quite right, he said, all the things we are
taught, all the loves we chase, all the deaths we
die, all the lives we live,
they are never quite right,
they are hardly close to right,
these lives we live
one after the other,
piled there as history,
the waste of the species,
the crushing of the light and the way,
it's not quite right,
it's hardly right at all
he said.

don't I know it? I
answered.

I walked away from the mirror.
it was morning, it was afternoon, it was
night

nothing changed
it was locked in place.
something flashed, something broke, something
remained.

I walked down the stairway and
into it.

stay focused on what makes u happy, and what u need to do to b happy. notice the lil details to help u smile sometimes, and be happy w.whatever kindness u get outta ppl. I think u gotta jus re-focus when u start to go crazy.
"what matters most is how well u walk thru the fire."
just handle everything.

im not rigt now, but i am going to b REALLY sad about aunt jay dying.