I'm going to shoot you to the moon, alice..
I swear, everytime that I'm honest with people, it creates tension, otherwise known as drama.
I'd be better off if I was dishonest. Which I am more than I'd like to really admit. In order to avoid confrontation I come up with a "clever" story so that neither party members are hurt or disappointed. Seriously, that's what I do.
So basically, this means that I should just keep trying to protect people, thus protecting myself, or give up on people as a whole. Right now I'm kind of leaning towards the second option, because I don't know how worth it they really are.
And I've always liked people.
It's a shame.
Granted, there are a few people that I couldn't do with out, and I'm afraid that those are the people that I'm going to have to one day. I don't blame them, and I wish that I could have the gumption to "get up and go" but I'm afraid that I'm too much of a coward, or too afraid of failure and truly being on my own. You know who you are, and I just hope that you know that I really do admire you. You'll have to excuse my selfishness.
In other news, I've missed class a lot this semester. A lot. way more than I should or I've wanted to. Yes, i do believe I've met my peak... and I'm failing.
I never went to see somebody like I swore I would. I need to. I'm going to. *writing down number now so I remember to call for an appt tomorrow* hell, maybe I'll do walk in hours tomorrow. Hmm, yes I think so.
Happy Halloween.
ssenilenol ym eruc esaelp ydobemos
I'd be better off if I was dishonest. Which I am more than I'd like to really admit. In order to avoid confrontation I come up with a "clever" story so that neither party members are hurt or disappointed. Seriously, that's what I do.
So basically, this means that I should just keep trying to protect people, thus protecting myself, or give up on people as a whole. Right now I'm kind of leaning towards the second option, because I don't know how worth it they really are.
And I've always liked people.
It's a shame.
Granted, there are a few people that I couldn't do with out, and I'm afraid that those are the people that I'm going to have to one day. I don't blame them, and I wish that I could have the gumption to "get up and go" but I'm afraid that I'm too much of a coward, or too afraid of failure and truly being on my own. You know who you are, and I just hope that you know that I really do admire you. You'll have to excuse my selfishness.
In other news, I've missed class a lot this semester. A lot. way more than I should or I've wanted to. Yes, i do believe I've met my peak... and I'm failing.
I never went to see somebody like I swore I would. I need to. I'm going to. *writing down number now so I remember to call for an appt tomorrow* hell, maybe I'll do walk in hours tomorrow. Hmm, yes I think so.
Happy Halloween.
ssenilenol ym eruc esaelp ydobemos