attention, attention
i feel like a little kid on the corner of the street who sells newspaper. he'll go unnoticed until he has soemthing exciting to say.
i think that in the last 24 hours ive played ever thing i can ever remember from the last month over and over in my head. maybe thats why. maybe i should have just done what i wanted. oh god, whyd i have to start caring? i mean i knew i was leaving. and i knew he was all messed up inside but i still continued to care. and now im the one left crying.
im nto sure if it hurts more because he said he was relived or if the fact that he riped my heart out yet wanted me to stay and comfort him.
i have a strong feeling im the only one who cant sleep.
maybe it hurts because instead of saying stay he told me to go. god ive only been at war with my mother for the last 4 days to stay in tucson. maybe i was dumb to want to stay souly for him. would it be crazy if i said i needed him. i desperatly needed him.
i wasnt lookng for a right answer i was looking for one that made me more happy and he certainly wasnt going to say it. maybe thats my fault.
man.
my body and i have so much in common. maybe its time to abort. maybe ill find something stronger in another no where place.
i might just run away into the clouds today. because unfortunatly , these days, the clouds are the only thing that welcome me with open arms.
maybe my life is orange. bring on the dye and ill start with the cloths.
i think that in the last 24 hours ive played ever thing i can ever remember from the last month over and over in my head. maybe thats why. maybe i should have just done what i wanted. oh god, whyd i have to start caring? i mean i knew i was leaving. and i knew he was all messed up inside but i still continued to care. and now im the one left crying.
im nto sure if it hurts more because he said he was relived or if the fact that he riped my heart out yet wanted me to stay and comfort him.
i have a strong feeling im the only one who cant sleep.
maybe it hurts because instead of saying stay he told me to go. god ive only been at war with my mother for the last 4 days to stay in tucson. maybe i was dumb to want to stay souly for him. would it be crazy if i said i needed him. i desperatly needed him.
i wasnt lookng for a right answer i was looking for one that made me more happy and he certainly wasnt going to say it. maybe thats my fault.
man.
my body and i have so much in common. maybe its time to abort. maybe ill find something stronger in another no where place.
i might just run away into the clouds today. because unfortunatly , these days, the clouds are the only thing that welcome me with open arms.
maybe my life is orange. bring on the dye and ill start with the cloths.