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In recovery, the first thing they try to convince you of is that you have a disease. I think they do that because it helps people come to terms with the fact that they need help. You can't get rid of any other sort of disease without help, right? I mean, any other medical illness needs medical attention because it's not going to just go away by itself. Just like addiction and depression; you need therapy, and in a lot of cases you need medication as well.
I don't want to put being in love at the same level of addiction and depression because obviously it's not. But to quote Sam from Love Actually, sometimes it's difficult to see what could be "worse than the total agony of being in love." Not that being in love should be total agony, and many would argue that if that's how you feel about it then it isn't love. But I don't necessarily think it's 'agony.' It's really just overwhelming. I am in love right now, and I have been for a really long time. It is overwhelming. And overwhelming comes with both the good and the bad. I personally think that the bad helps you see the good. I don't think that you NEED the bad to see the good, but I definitely think it helps.. helps the appreciation and respect part.
I know for a fact that at least half of you reading this has dealt with depression and/or addiction in some sort of close proximity. Mainly within your families, but also within your other relationships with friends and loved ones. It seems almost like a common thing for everyone we know to have a story in relation to depression and/or addiction, and it's really sad. But I also think that it's really helped us become as strong as we are. I'm so proud of every one of you for dealing with your story in whatever way that you have, because even though I know you have those stories, I know you're not creating your own for someone else. And if I'm wrong, if there's someone out there who is happening to be struggling with the same depression or addiction that they watched crush a loved one, I strongly believe that you will get help. Maybe not right now, but you will. Because you have that appreciation and respect for your life after witnessing someone else's fall apart. You have to. If you don't, what else do you have?
I just need to believe that there's a reason for everything and that only good can come out of the bad. It's one of those days.
I don't want to put being in love at the same level of addiction and depression because obviously it's not. But to quote Sam from Love Actually, sometimes it's difficult to see what could be "worse than the total agony of being in love." Not that being in love should be total agony, and many would argue that if that's how you feel about it then it isn't love. But I don't necessarily think it's 'agony.' It's really just overwhelming. I am in love right now, and I have been for a really long time. It is overwhelming. And overwhelming comes with both the good and the bad. I personally think that the bad helps you see the good. I don't think that you NEED the bad to see the good, but I definitely think it helps.. helps the appreciation and respect part.
I know for a fact that at least half of you reading this has dealt with depression and/or addiction in some sort of close proximity. Mainly within your families, but also within your other relationships with friends and loved ones. It seems almost like a common thing for everyone we know to have a story in relation to depression and/or addiction, and it's really sad. But I also think that it's really helped us become as strong as we are. I'm so proud of every one of you for dealing with your story in whatever way that you have, because even though I know you have those stories, I know you're not creating your own for someone else. And if I'm wrong, if there's someone out there who is happening to be struggling with the same depression or addiction that they watched crush a loved one, I strongly believe that you will get help. Maybe not right now, but you will. Because you have that appreciation and respect for your life after witnessing someone else's fall apart. You have to. If you don't, what else do you have?
I just need to believe that there's a reason for everything and that only good can come out of the bad. It's one of those days.