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so this weekend started out ok...and then just plain sucked. monday was scary...it doesnt sound it...but it was honestly one of the scariest things thats ever happened to me.
all weekend i was just feeling down...just not myself, and i just didnt have any energy...it was from stress, how much was on my mind...i dunno a mix of things. so i went to golds on monday...cuz i told myself i was gunna go...and i am soo determined to meet my goals that i made for myself by prom. i was feeling all dizzy and stuff all day but went anyway...and after i was on the treadmill for a half hour and did weights for about a half hour i was on this leg press thing and my eyes just went totally black..not fuzzy for a couple of seconds like it was over the weekend when i got up too fast...i couldnt see a thing and couldnt like feel or control my body anymore. so the next thing i know is i opened my eyes to people shaking me..and my head hurt..and my back hurt...and i had no idea what happened. i found out i was out for like 10 seconds or something...def could have been a lot worse, but it was just so scary. i was so out of it and so dizzy and its just scary that i went so far with the whole eating better thing that my body just gave out on me. ms. taurassi was there and was helping me out a lot, that made me feel a lot better i luv her. i was a mess...and the chiropractor/neurologist i saw last night told me my backs kind of a mess too which kind of stinks but it will be better soon. i felt so stupid for treating my body the way i did....i mean to the point where it just stopped working.
so anyway its not a huge deal...people pass out...it was just really scary. and now i know i have to eat wayyy better...and get more sleep. the doctor said thats also why i was all not feeling like myself for the past week ish. it affected how my brain was functioning and stuff too. so today was a lot better, i was awake cuz i finally slept and i am eating right. yayness.
and its snowing!!! which is really cool...i luv it.
but i really really want summer to come...and i really really really want to go surfing like now. and i wish our trip to hawaii and cali was tomorrow. and i like being warm...and tan...and i hate being freezing and when my hands are soooo cold like 24/7 and i cant type right...like now
ill go watch the snow now...and paint so schimsky doesnt eat me...and study for some of these tests
if you got this far...you're the coolest...and you def deserve a lollipop
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all weekend i was just feeling down...just not myself, and i just didnt have any energy...it was from stress, how much was on my mind...i dunno a mix of things. so i went to golds on monday...cuz i told myself i was gunna go...and i am soo determined to meet my goals that i made for myself by prom. i was feeling all dizzy and stuff all day but went anyway...and after i was on the treadmill for a half hour and did weights for about a half hour i was on this leg press thing and my eyes just went totally black..not fuzzy for a couple of seconds like it was over the weekend when i got up too fast...i couldnt see a thing and couldnt like feel or control my body anymore. so the next thing i know is i opened my eyes to people shaking me..and my head hurt..and my back hurt...and i had no idea what happened. i found out i was out for like 10 seconds or something...def could have been a lot worse, but it was just so scary. i was so out of it and so dizzy and its just scary that i went so far with the whole eating better thing that my body just gave out on me. ms. taurassi was there and was helping me out a lot, that made me feel a lot better i luv her. i was a mess...and the chiropractor/neurologist i saw last night told me my backs kind of a mess too which kind of stinks but it will be better soon. i felt so stupid for treating my body the way i did....i mean to the point where it just stopped working.
so anyway its not a huge deal...people pass out...it was just really scary. and now i know i have to eat wayyy better...and get more sleep. the doctor said thats also why i was all not feeling like myself for the past week ish. it affected how my brain was functioning and stuff too. so today was a lot better, i was awake cuz i finally slept and i am eating right. yayness.
and its snowing!!! which is really cool...i luv it.
but i really really want summer to come...and i really really really want to go surfing like now. and i wish our trip to hawaii and cali was tomorrow. and i like being warm...and tan...and i hate being freezing and when my hands are soooo cold like 24/7 and i cant type right...like now
ill go watch the snow now...and paint so schimsky doesnt eat me...and study for some of these tests
if you got this far...you're the coolest...and you def deserve a lollipop
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