im fed-up ppl!!
hey yall~
ok,this is not directed to everyone who reads it----Why can't you just get it.damn,all of a sudden starting to being nice to me a while ago after you assumed a million things you were afraid of,bringing me closer.i get it now.i love u but i hate the way you punish me,making ME feel like the bad guy.but im not.i dont want to sound like the victim here but im tired of thinking it's me who's wrong,to strangers this wont make sense,to my closest friends or ones who have gone through it they get it...and im starting to get it now too.i didnt ask for this....to be put in this situation,its not fair.not to anyone of us.it hurts me and it sux....because you think i dont see everytime you whisper false sayings into anothers ear about me,the looks....and im supposed to sit there and take it.this is how its always been...all these girls sitting in front of me,or behind my baq talking...but why??what did i fucking do?tell me please!!i know we are being truthfull now,weve had those talks a thousand times....so i am.but we still are fake.im trying to fix it because i love u but this doesnt work anymore.all the lies...im tired of them....ive held back feelings for months now because i didnt want our friendship to be ruined because i love u but this isnt a good friendship.not if ure lying to me.i cant hold it in anymore and i know it has to happen or else it wouldnt come baq over and over.i love u mucho but u just dont get the way you are,trying to push someone out of my life....im not gonna let you out of my life,or anyone else.
♥