* OLD POSTS * after reveiwing a few ~
I DONT THINK I CAN READ MY OLD POST ANYMORE. I FEEL TOO MUCH EMOTION FROM THEM, AND I SUPPOSE THIS WAS AN OUTLET FOR MY EMOTIONS THAT I COULDN'T SPEAK TO ANYONE ABOUT. I DIDN'T USUALLY GIVE OUT THE LINK TO THIS JOURNAL. IT WAS LIKE MY OWN WORLD OF EXPRESSION BUT STILL KNOWING IT IS PUBLIC. I FEEL SORRY FOR MYSELF WHEN I SEE HOW MEAN I REFERRED TO PEOPLE WHO HURT ME. I HAVE LEARNED A LOT FROM LOOKING AT MY SELF ONLY A COUPLE YEARS YOUNGER THAN I AM NOW. I HAVE DEFINITELY GROWN AND LEARNED A LOT OF LIFE LESSONS. NONE OF MY FRIENDS COULD BE MY FRIENDS CAUSE I WAS NOT HOLDING SPACE FOR ANY KIND OF FRIENDSHIP - ALL I DID WAS JUDGE THEM LIKE I ACCUSED THEM OF DOING TO ME. OF COURSE THEY WOULD HAVE ENDED UP DOING IT TO ME, IF ALL I DID WAS GIVE OUT THAT FREQUENCY WHEN I FOCUSED ON THEM. HOW DARE I STOOP TO THAT LEVEL ANYWAY, IF SOMEONE WAS IN THE WRONG, I SHOULD NOT HAVE FOCUSED SO IMMATURELY ON IT -- I SHOULD HAVE LOOKED FOR A DIFFERENT APPROACH BUT AT LEAST I CAN SEE NOW. I REALLY HAVE ALWAYS BEEN THIS IGNORANT SOCIALLY.
LOL... it is always a learning experience!
Don't make your self sound like an idiot just because someone else acted like one! :-)