the truth is excuses are lame
today.
today sucks.
i'm having a good hair day. but a bad face day.
the sun has given me freckles & i am not thankful.
i want to go out.
i want to do something exciting. something thrilling.
something that will give me a RUSH.
and no, i do not mean anything drug related. alcohol related, possibly. but no drugs.
so i turn to lj when i have feelings to write about.
oh... feelings. teenage feelings. those are the worst kind. feelings that hurt.
i'm cold.
but my feelings.
okay.
louie and i are broken up. louie.. haha.
we've been broken up for almost a month and a half. almost. that's a long time.
no one ever thought we would stay broken up forever... because we never did. but we are. we are BROKEN UP. making it to a month of being broken up kind of finalizes it. hm.
there was this boy that i liked.
i've spent a lot of time with him lately... & i'm pretty sure that's going to stop soon. very soon. maybe today. that's soon.
&, while i was not in love with him and was not in a relationship with him, i still liked him. quite a bit. & i'm pretty sure he's gone now.
resulting in a dual heartbreak.
heartbreak.
whatever that means.
i liked him. & i THOUGHT he liked me. so it hurts.
louie. plus the guy. equals dual.
hurt times two.
negative things times two are never good. positive two, that is. because if it was negative two, it would result in a positive... which would be good. but you can't have negative dual... only positive.
shut up.
i'm not mad though. i saw it coming. i understand... i would do the same thing.
i sat in my room and talked to myself in the mirror. talking about how i would do the same thing.
it made me feel better. who cares if i looked stupid.
i can't wait for school to start.
i can, but i can't.
i want the social scene of school... not so much the whole SCHOOL aspect of it. because school equals work. and work equals stress. and stress isn't fun.
but whatever.
the red jumpsuit apparatus.
amazing.
i'm gonna go listen to their cd.
again.
love.
today sucks.
i'm having a good hair day. but a bad face day.
the sun has given me freckles & i am not thankful.
i want to go out.
i want to do something exciting. something thrilling.
something that will give me a RUSH.
and no, i do not mean anything drug related. alcohol related, possibly. but no drugs.
so i turn to lj when i have feelings to write about.
oh... feelings. teenage feelings. those are the worst kind. feelings that hurt.
i'm cold.
but my feelings.
okay.
louie and i are broken up. louie.. haha.
we've been broken up for almost a month and a half. almost. that's a long time.
no one ever thought we would stay broken up forever... because we never did. but we are. we are BROKEN UP. making it to a month of being broken up kind of finalizes it. hm.
there was this boy that i liked.
i've spent a lot of time with him lately... & i'm pretty sure that's going to stop soon. very soon. maybe today. that's soon.
&, while i was not in love with him and was not in a relationship with him, i still liked him. quite a bit. & i'm pretty sure he's gone now.
resulting in a dual heartbreak.
heartbreak.
whatever that means.
i liked him. & i THOUGHT he liked me. so it hurts.
louie. plus the guy. equals dual.
hurt times two.
negative things times two are never good. positive two, that is. because if it was negative two, it would result in a positive... which would be good. but you can't have negative dual... only positive.
shut up.
i'm not mad though. i saw it coming. i understand... i would do the same thing.
i sat in my room and talked to myself in the mirror. talking about how i would do the same thing.
it made me feel better. who cares if i looked stupid.
i can't wait for school to start.
i can, but i can't.
i want the social scene of school... not so much the whole SCHOOL aspect of it. because school equals work. and work equals stress. and stress isn't fun.
but whatever.
the red jumpsuit apparatus.
amazing.
i'm gonna go listen to their cd.
again.
love.