tonight didn't go as planned
Sitting there .. I stared at myself.I didn't see me though.I saw my state of sadness.I saw hopelessness..and lack of control.I saw some one who wasn't rejoiced at birth.I saw an accident.Some one worth leaving at the age of seven.Some one who isn't worth staying alive for.My own fucking mother didn't love me enough to try and be a mom.She did just the opposite.She did plenty of guys and drugs..and alcohol..and I was raised my family members.She even tried to kill herself.What a GREAT mom . Then my dad , KNOWING my mother was fucked up all the time ,decided to leave me.Bye.See ya later...
-FUCKER !!!!
Looking at myself I saw a failure.And I pittied myself there for a minute or two until I thought about it and realized that it wasn't because of me at all.
Everyone fucked me over my whole life.No one was ever there.I've never had the same person always b there.NOT ONE PERSON has stuck with me so far in life since birth.That started to piss me off and hurt me.I didn't know how to take the pain out except for on myself.I pulled out the rayzor and the variety of diet pills .. and that was my night.
What a sad pathetic piece of shit i am.
-FUCKER !!!!
Looking at myself I saw a failure.And I pittied myself there for a minute or two until I thought about it and realized that it wasn't because of me at all.
Everyone fucked me over my whole life.No one was ever there.I've never had the same person always b there.NOT ONE PERSON has stuck with me so far in life since birth.That started to piss me off and hurt me.I didn't know how to take the pain out except for on myself.I pulled out the rayzor and the variety of diet pills .. and that was my night.
What a sad pathetic piece of shit i am.