torn
Was I not good enough from the start
Was I not worthy of having a place in your heart
Was I just a mistake that you never wanted
I try to forget but i feel somewhat haunted
I didn't ask for you to be my mother
I didn't ask for a new one , or want a new brother
I didn't want you to drink me away
I didn't want to feel abandoned and unwanted everyday
I'm sorry I was even born
now i'm un-loved , forgotten , i'm broken
i'm torn
^ I made that , when I remembered how my mother almost committed suicide.It's not like he stopped herself though.I was young.Maybe 5 , 6 , or 7 .I was spending the weekend with my dad.My mother drove her old peice of shit van to an open feild.She took a vacume to the muffler , so that the van would fill up with carbon dioxide.She layed in the van , hoping that she'd die.I guess a ranger came over just in time.She was sent to a loonie-house or whatever.Bitch.She didn't even think about me.What would of happened if he hand't came over?She obviously didn't care.She had two daughters from a previous marriage too.What about them?There on out..she drank .. and did drugs ( more than before ) she tried to escape reality with vodka and weed.Nice mom.Real nice.Brought home tons of guys.Married like four.They were all ass holes too.Real winners.Then when I was seven , my dad decided to move to Florida.Bye father.nice to see you every other weekend for a few years.Then we moved to Mississippi.Then my mom got divorced , for like the 6th time..and I got taken away when my mom was busted for posession and possibly selling pot.Great.Now i'm with my dad .. and my new step mom and little step brother.idk y im pouring all this out now.But w/e
Was I not worthy of having a place in your heart
Was I just a mistake that you never wanted
I try to forget but i feel somewhat haunted
I didn't ask for you to be my mother
I didn't ask for a new one , or want a new brother
I didn't want you to drink me away
I didn't want to feel abandoned and unwanted everyday
I'm sorry I was even born
now i'm un-loved , forgotten , i'm broken
i'm torn
^ I made that , when I remembered how my mother almost committed suicide.It's not like he stopped herself though.I was young.Maybe 5 , 6 , or 7 .I was spending the weekend with my dad.My mother drove her old peice of shit van to an open feild.She took a vacume to the muffler , so that the van would fill up with carbon dioxide.She layed in the van , hoping that she'd die.I guess a ranger came over just in time.She was sent to a loonie-house or whatever.Bitch.She didn't even think about me.What would of happened if he hand't came over?She obviously didn't care.She had two daughters from a previous marriage too.What about them?There on out..she drank .. and did drugs ( more than before ) she tried to escape reality with vodka and weed.Nice mom.Real nice.Brought home tons of guys.Married like four.They were all ass holes too.Real winners.Then when I was seven , my dad decided to move to Florida.Bye father.nice to see you every other weekend for a few years.Then we moved to Mississippi.Then my mom got divorced , for like the 6th time..and I got taken away when my mom was busted for posession and possibly selling pot.Great.Now i'm with my dad .. and my new step mom and little step brother.idk y im pouring all this out now.But w/e