i want to run away
i dont need this. all i need is us.
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i want to be 9 again. because everything was perfect when i was 9, and if it wasnt i didnt know any better. im so sick of life.
these past few months have been the best and worst of my life. i feel like i have been pushed to my emotional limits, im about to snap.
and then there's always that one person... the one person who you HOPE will never ever hurt you because they just arent supposed to. its that person you go to when your whole world is upside down. that comfort zone. and then they crash on you too. you come to them to make things all better and they just make it worse.
i would do anything to just feel normal again but i dont even feel like im in my own body anymore. most days i feel like im standing outside watching. its the weirdest thing i have ever felt in my life.
i want to go back to the old ways, when we all used to just sit around and bullshit but we always had such a blast doing it that we never cared.
what the hell happens when people who used to be so close just stop talking... you used to spend every day together and now its like you're lucky if you get a phone call once a week.
i want out of here.