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there are moments when I wake up alone and for a moment my heart stops because I can't find my diamond. then i realize i have been ringless for a while now.
i don't think that i have ever been so heart broken in my life. and i guess the thing that pains me most is that no one even knows. not one friend has asked me how i'm handling it, or how i am doing. "hey, how are you after losing the person you were going to marry? your best friend?"
not to mention --someone who i thought was my best friend betrayed me in the biggest way possible by writing him online and telling him i have been doing drugs and sleeping around. NOT true. it's not my fault you don't know the different between a hookah and a bong, you stupid bitch. you can burn in hell for making him believe lies about me.
it sickens me how much i felt and still feel like he is the one for me but i don't know what to do about it. people say everything happens for a reason, but no. this was a twist that was not supposed to happen.
my other half. my confidant. my everything. gone.
i don't think that i have ever been so heart broken in my life. and i guess the thing that pains me most is that no one even knows. not one friend has asked me how i'm handling it, or how i am doing. "hey, how are you after losing the person you were going to marry? your best friend?"
not to mention --someone who i thought was my best friend betrayed me in the biggest way possible by writing him online and telling him i have been doing drugs and sleeping around. NOT true. it's not my fault you don't know the different between a hookah and a bong, you stupid bitch. you can burn in hell for making him believe lies about me.
it sickens me how much i felt and still feel like he is the one for me but i don't know what to do about it. people say everything happens for a reason, but no. this was a twist that was not supposed to happen.
my other half. my confidant. my everything. gone.