I Miss Me
THIS is why i hated Rutgers so much. Here is what keeps bothering me: i just want these people to know that they have changed me sooooo much. i used to be so happy. why are people so horrible?? i don*t get it. and i don*t want to hear that people are superficial. that is FINE. no one has to like me or think i am beautiful..but why the hell do they have to comment on it CONSTANTLY?? Rutgers changed me..a lot. I wish I could go back to how I used to be...
I was trying to figure out why I have so much anxiety about going back. Me and Stacy couldn't figure it out, so I looked through some old entries and now it's clear to me. People at Rutgers fucking suck. My floor hated me. People talked shit about me constantly. And I let guys use me and disrespect me.
To make matters worse, I have no friends there anymore.
I can't believe I am going back to a place like that. Miami is SO much better. I have maybe 3 or 4 good friends here, but they are good friends. And nobody here bothers me. It is peaceful, and always sunny, and happy. Yeah, this place is happy. I guess that is a good way to describe it. The food is good, the landscaping is nice, classes are easy, professors are caring, and the sun shines like 90% of the time.
How I'm going to miss it.
If I were to put everything on a scale, the whole world on one side and Mark on the other, there would be a big greater than sign facing Mark. (I totally stole that line from him, haha)! That is why I am leaving. I miss him too much. And there is no possible way that I can be unhappy if I get to see him everyday - even if it means I am at the dreaded Rutgers.
I was trying to figure out why I have so much anxiety about going back. Me and Stacy couldn't figure it out, so I looked through some old entries and now it's clear to me. People at Rutgers fucking suck. My floor hated me. People talked shit about me constantly. And I let guys use me and disrespect me.
To make matters worse, I have no friends there anymore.
I can't believe I am going back to a place like that. Miami is SO much better. I have maybe 3 or 4 good friends here, but they are good friends. And nobody here bothers me. It is peaceful, and always sunny, and happy. Yeah, this place is happy. I guess that is a good way to describe it. The food is good, the landscaping is nice, classes are easy, professors are caring, and the sun shines like 90% of the time.
How I'm going to miss it.
If I were to put everything on a scale, the whole world on one side and Mark on the other, there would be a big greater than sign facing Mark. (I totally stole that line from him, haha)! That is why I am leaving. I miss him too much. And there is no possible way that I can be unhappy if I get to see him everyday - even if it means I am at the dreaded Rutgers.