I Become So Numb;;
UNF0RTUNATLY 2DAY I DIDN'T G0 T0 SK00L 0NCE AGAIN<, BUT IT WAS ONLY TO SUPPORT MY BABY BECUZ HIS DAD'S IN THE HOSPITAL! I FEEL BAD TOO BECUZ LIKE I'M HIS GIRLFRIEND AND I REALLY D0N'T KN0W WHAT T0 SAY T0 HIIM T0 TELL HIM THAT'S EVERYTHING'S G0NNA W0RK 0UT ALRIGHT! ________MY L0VE F0R HIM IZ S00 REAL LIKE 0N THAT 0THER SHIIT BUT I HAVE NEVER HAD TO DEAL WIITH 0NE 0F MY PARENTS BEING IN THE H0SPITAL IN THAT KIND 0F WAY~ S0 I'M VERY [[SPEECHLESS]] AND I CRIED TODAY BECUZ LIKE I JUST WANNA BE THERE F0R HIM AND HE'S LIKE I AM BUT H0NESTLY I REALLY D0N'T BELIEVE HIIM! I THINK HE'D JUST SAY ANYTHING TODAY TO MAKE EVERYTHING GREAT! WHEN IT'S N0T: I'VE D0NE DEALT WIITH S00 MUCH SHYT THESE PAST C0UPLE 0F WEEKZ DUDE LIKE 0N S0ME REAL SHYT BEING SUSPENDED; THE 1 YR. ANNIVARSARY 0F MY GRANNY WHO'S PASSED; DIVORCES; PE0PLE BEIIN PREG; CAR ACCIDENT; MY GRADES; PEOPLE HAVIIN CANCER IN WHICH WHOM I CAN NOT SAY; CHEATERS; NOT BEIIN CLOSE TO 1 OF MY BESTFRIENDS ANYM0RE; && THIS RELATIONSHIIP THANG! IT'S JUST REALLY T00 MUCH FAREAL<< BUT I TRY && SMILE TO AT LEAST MAKE MYSELF THINK THAT EVERYTHINGZ 00KAY WHEN IT'S REALLY N0T! S0 I ASK MYSELF WHAT AM I T0 D0 THEN I TURN TO MY PRAY IN G0D AND ASK THE SAME QUESTION! && THE 1ST THIING THAT C0MES 2 MIIND IS DEAL WIITH EVERYTHING 1 BY 1 BECAUSE IT WILL ALL GET BETTER IN DUE TIIME! AND SINCE I WAS WIITH JUJUANTAY EARLIER HE HASN'T CALLE DME SINCE HE LEFT WHICH WAS AT 1:30 P.M IT'S 10:24 P.M I0N0 MANN MAYBE HE CAN'T TALK TO ME RIIGHT N0W! I CALLED HIM BUT THEY SAIID HE WASN'T THERE S00....N0W WHAT??? I GUESS I WAIIT UNTIL 2MARR0W___RIIGHT?? WR0NG I WAIT UNTIL HE CALLS ME T0NIGHT BECAUSE I'M STRESSED && W0RRIED S0 THAT'S WHAT I'LL D0 UNTIL THEN I' M G0NNA TAKE A NICE H0T BUBBLE BATH! UNO <3 T0 ALL MY C0MMENTERZ
