WHILE THEIR AT LUNCH...
I APOLOGIZE NOW FOR THE CAPS LOCK BEING ON..I HAVE TO HAVE IT ON AT WORK FOR THE SYSTEM WE USE OTHERWISE IT FUCKS YOU UP..RATHER ANNOYING..
I FIGURED I'D UPDATE THIS THING WHILE MY CO WORKERS WENT TO LUNCH. I WENT TO THE DOCTORS LAST WEEK AND EVERTHINGS FINE AND DANDY FOR THE MOST PART..NO WEIGHT GAIN WHICH IS FABULOUS. I TOLD HER I HAVEN'T BEEN EXERCISING AND I'M TRYING TO GET BACK ON TRACK. SHE GAVE ME A PEDOMETER TO WEAR. I WORE IT ON MONDAY, BUT I FORGOT TO PUT IT ON TIL I GOT TO WORK AND WAS HORRIFIED AT THE END OF THE NIGHT TO SEE HOW MANY STEPS I REALLY TAKE AND IT WASN'T EVEN TWO THOUSAND! YESTERDAY WAS BETTER IT WAS OVER THREE THOUSAND. I REALLY NEED TO GET MOVING. THATS THE ONLY GOOD THING ABOUT VALORA, THE OFFICE WAS HUGE AND LAURA AND I DIDN'T SIT VERY CLOSE TOGETHER SO I DID MORE WALKING BACK AND FORTH HAHA. BUT NOW THAT I AM IN A SMALLER OFFICE, THEN A SMALLER OFFICE WITHIN THE OFFICE WORKING CLOSE TO THE GIRLS I TALK TO AND WORK WITH MOSTLY I DON'T WALK AS MUCH..I ALMOST PUT WORK AS MUCH HAHA BUT I THINK I DO MORE WORK HERE USUALLY THAN I DID AT THE SHITHOLE CALLED VALORA.
ANYWAYS! I WENT TO THE DOCTORS AGAIN LAST NIGHT, BUT THIS TIME TO SEE THE NURSE WHO SPECIALIZES WITH THE DIABETES. SHES SO UBER NICE. WE TALKED A LITTLE, DID SOME BLOOD WORK. BUT WE TALKED ABOUT PREGNANCY. NOW WE ALL KNOW HOW IMPORTANT THAT IS TO MEEE! SHE ASKED ME IF NEAL AND I HAVE TALKED ABOUT IT AND I TOLD HER THIS "I TOLD NEAL THE OTHER DAY THAT IF I CAN'T HAVE KIDS MY HEART WILL SHATTER INTO A MILLION PIECES"..DEAD SERIOUS I SAID THOSE EXACT WORDS TO HIM THE OTHER NIGHT. SHE TOLD ME WHEN I DO GET PREGGERS SOME DAY I WILL HAVE TO TAKE MY SUGAR LIKE 4 TIMES A DAY WHICH I CAN HANDLE. THEN SHE SAID I MIGHT HAVE TO TAKE INSULIN AND GIVE MYSELF A SHOT A COUPLE TIMES A DAY! I WAS LIKE OK SUGAR I CAN HANDLE, GIVING MYSELF A SHOT I CANNOT HANDLE. THEN SHE SAID I MIGHT NOT HAVE TO, CAUSE I'VE RESPONDED SO WELL TO THE METFORMIN, AND THERES ALSO OTHER FORMS OF THE INSULIN I COULD TAKE. DIABETES RUINS MY LIFE! AFTER MEETING WITH HER, I DECIDED I REALLY NEED TO START FOLLOWING A DIABETIC DIET THE BEST THAT I CAN AND START EXERCISING AGAIN. I'M ALSO GOING TO HAVE TO REMEMBER TO ASK MY DOCTOR NEXT TIME I SEE HER ABOUT PREGNANCIES AND PCOS. AND IF I MIGHT HAVE PROBLEMS AND IF I SHOULD TRY SOONER THAN LATER TO GET PREGNANT, I JOINED A COMMUNITY ON HERE FOR PCOS AND SOMEONE SAID THEY TRIED TO TALK TO THEIR DOCTOR ABOUT IT AND THE DOCTOR SAID THE ONLY THING TO DO IS BIRTH CONTROL OR GET PREGNANT SOONER RATHER THAN LATER. WHICH FREAKED ME OUT. NEAL AND I HAVEN'T ACTUALLY DECIDED WHEN WE'D START TRYING. WE'VE ONLY TALKED ABOUT HAVING ALL OUR DEBT CLEARED UP. AND HES SAID THAT IF WE CAN'T CONCEIVE HE'D MAKE SURE THERES A WAY FOR US TO HAVE KIDS. NOW I'M ALL FOR ADOPTION IF I CAN'T HAVE A BABY, BUT I JUST FEAR NOT HAVING THAT BOND OR LOVE LIKE I WOULD FOR A BABY OF MY OWN...I THINK WE REALLY NEED TO START TALKING ABOUT IT SERIOUSLY. AND I HAVE THE FEAR OF MY CHILDREN HAVING DIABETES BECAUSE OF ME. NOTHINGS EVER EASY.
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIND WEBSITES THAT HAVE MEAL PLANS FOR DIABETICS AND HAVE BEEN HAVING NO SUCH LUCK. AND I THINK I THREW AWAY THE BOOK MY DOCTOR GAVE ME LIKE A DOUCHE. I GUESS I'LL KEEP SEARCHING. AND CHECK THE APARTMENT WHEN I GET HOME.
THE WEDDING IS COMING UP FAST. ITS GOING TO BE HERE BEFORE I KNOW IT, AND THERES STILL SOO MUCH MONEY WE HAVE TO COME UP WITH BEFORE AUGUST/SEPTEMBER AND MONEY FOR WHEN WE GO TO DISNEY..I HOPE IT ALL WORKS OUT AS WE WANT IT TO...
I FIGURED I'D UPDATE THIS THING WHILE MY CO WORKERS WENT TO LUNCH. I WENT TO THE DOCTORS LAST WEEK AND EVERTHINGS FINE AND DANDY FOR THE MOST PART..NO WEIGHT GAIN WHICH IS FABULOUS. I TOLD HER I HAVEN'T BEEN EXERCISING AND I'M TRYING TO GET BACK ON TRACK. SHE GAVE ME A PEDOMETER TO WEAR. I WORE IT ON MONDAY, BUT I FORGOT TO PUT IT ON TIL I GOT TO WORK AND WAS HORRIFIED AT THE END OF THE NIGHT TO SEE HOW MANY STEPS I REALLY TAKE AND IT WASN'T EVEN TWO THOUSAND! YESTERDAY WAS BETTER IT WAS OVER THREE THOUSAND. I REALLY NEED TO GET MOVING. THATS THE ONLY GOOD THING ABOUT VALORA, THE OFFICE WAS HUGE AND LAURA AND I DIDN'T SIT VERY CLOSE TOGETHER SO I DID MORE WALKING BACK AND FORTH HAHA. BUT NOW THAT I AM IN A SMALLER OFFICE, THEN A SMALLER OFFICE WITHIN THE OFFICE WORKING CLOSE TO THE GIRLS I TALK TO AND WORK WITH MOSTLY I DON'T WALK AS MUCH..I ALMOST PUT WORK AS MUCH HAHA BUT I THINK I DO MORE WORK HERE USUALLY THAN I DID AT THE SHITHOLE CALLED VALORA.
ANYWAYS! I WENT TO THE DOCTORS AGAIN LAST NIGHT, BUT THIS TIME TO SEE THE NURSE WHO SPECIALIZES WITH THE DIABETES. SHES SO UBER NICE. WE TALKED A LITTLE, DID SOME BLOOD WORK. BUT WE TALKED ABOUT PREGNANCY. NOW WE ALL KNOW HOW IMPORTANT THAT IS TO MEEE! SHE ASKED ME IF NEAL AND I HAVE TALKED ABOUT IT AND I TOLD HER THIS "I TOLD NEAL THE OTHER DAY THAT IF I CAN'T HAVE KIDS MY HEART WILL SHATTER INTO A MILLION PIECES"..DEAD SERIOUS I SAID THOSE EXACT WORDS TO HIM THE OTHER NIGHT. SHE TOLD ME WHEN I DO GET PREGGERS SOME DAY I WILL HAVE TO TAKE MY SUGAR LIKE 4 TIMES A DAY WHICH I CAN HANDLE. THEN SHE SAID I MIGHT HAVE TO TAKE INSULIN AND GIVE MYSELF A SHOT A COUPLE TIMES A DAY! I WAS LIKE OK SUGAR I CAN HANDLE, GIVING MYSELF A SHOT I CANNOT HANDLE. THEN SHE SAID I MIGHT NOT HAVE TO, CAUSE I'VE RESPONDED SO WELL TO THE METFORMIN, AND THERES ALSO OTHER FORMS OF THE INSULIN I COULD TAKE. DIABETES RUINS MY LIFE! AFTER MEETING WITH HER, I DECIDED I REALLY NEED TO START FOLLOWING A DIABETIC DIET THE BEST THAT I CAN AND START EXERCISING AGAIN. I'M ALSO GOING TO HAVE TO REMEMBER TO ASK MY DOCTOR NEXT TIME I SEE HER ABOUT PREGNANCIES AND PCOS. AND IF I MIGHT HAVE PROBLEMS AND IF I SHOULD TRY SOONER THAN LATER TO GET PREGNANT, I JOINED A COMMUNITY ON HERE FOR PCOS AND SOMEONE SAID THEY TRIED TO TALK TO THEIR DOCTOR ABOUT IT AND THE DOCTOR SAID THE ONLY THING TO DO IS BIRTH CONTROL OR GET PREGNANT SOONER RATHER THAN LATER. WHICH FREAKED ME OUT. NEAL AND I HAVEN'T ACTUALLY DECIDED WHEN WE'D START TRYING. WE'VE ONLY TALKED ABOUT HAVING ALL OUR DEBT CLEARED UP. AND HES SAID THAT IF WE CAN'T CONCEIVE HE'D MAKE SURE THERES A WAY FOR US TO HAVE KIDS. NOW I'M ALL FOR ADOPTION IF I CAN'T HAVE A BABY, BUT I JUST FEAR NOT HAVING THAT BOND OR LOVE LIKE I WOULD FOR A BABY OF MY OWN...I THINK WE REALLY NEED TO START TALKING ABOUT IT SERIOUSLY. AND I HAVE THE FEAR OF MY CHILDREN HAVING DIABETES BECAUSE OF ME. NOTHINGS EVER EASY.
I'VE BEEN TRYING TO FIND WEBSITES THAT HAVE MEAL PLANS FOR DIABETICS AND HAVE BEEN HAVING NO SUCH LUCK. AND I THINK I THREW AWAY THE BOOK MY DOCTOR GAVE ME LIKE A DOUCHE. I GUESS I'LL KEEP SEARCHING. AND CHECK THE APARTMENT WHEN I GET HOME.
THE WEDDING IS COMING UP FAST. ITS GOING TO BE HERE BEFORE I KNOW IT, AND THERES STILL SOO MUCH MONEY WE HAVE TO COME UP WITH BEFORE AUGUST/SEPTEMBER AND MONEY FOR WHEN WE GO TO DISNEY..I HOPE IT ALL WORKS OUT AS WE WANT IT TO...